Khalaas im done, finished, I cant take it any more.. : ( : ( I just lost yet another person I love. Ya Allah.. wallahi last night after talking to yassmeana I just wanted to break down crying. I couldn’t take it. I love her ya Allah.. and to see her hurting by itself is enough for me.. but to not talk to her.. I cant take that.. In the past short while I’ve lost 6 people that meant the world to me.. 3 online and 3 in real life.. and the wounds and scars are still hurting from it.. dania got married, bouthaina is in Australia, and tassnyms moving to saudia end of the summer.. but what hurts more is those I lost online..
1.Umm Qaylah: my first real friend online, the first person I trusted and loved so much. Wallahi I still do, and its awesome couse even though we barley talk when we do its like we were never apart.. (ukhti this isn’t to make u feel guilty wallahi so please don’t.. I understand what your going thru) personal problems is what's between us now.. fa Alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal..
2. Bhai: Always brought so much wisdom into my life. Gave the best advice. Could make me happy when I was the most sad, without meaning to. Was always there thru everything.. means the world to me, and always will.. Alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal
3. Yassmeana: I trusted and loved her so much even though at first we had our differences. Couse she couldn’t take the pain either she decided to not come online any more.. owch Ill always love u.. Alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal.
I think the loss of these three was and is harder on me than the loss of my three bestest friends in real life.. couse these were the ones that helped me thru the other ones. And losing my three friends was part of life (moving, marriage) but these I dunnu..
Last night I was reading Umm Qaylahs blog and I was like in tears couse I love that girl and hate seeing her down, then I get an offliner from yassi with a convo in it.. and I read it then yassi tells me the whole story.. that’s when she said goodbye told me to call her sometimes inshaAllah and said she was done with all this online mess.. she said she would never come back on. Ouch..
Khair inshaAllah.. I think the only thing this is going to do is take away the little sleep I do sleep and the little food I do eat.. I'm so depressed wallahi.. but life goes on.. and inshaAllah one day all our problems will go away and we will be united, if not in this dunya then in Jannah inshaAllah.. “Allahu 'aalam if our paths in the dunya
will ever cross, if they do may we unite upon goodness and depart upon goodness,
if not insha Allah...maybe we'll be neighbors in Jannah.” As bhai would say/said..
on a brighter note, the dawaa projects are going pretty good.. so I guess at the end you live your life, do what you do, but the scars remain and always will.. wa lilahil hamd..
“For all the yesterdays you filled with happy memories, for all the today’s you fill with special joy—my heart is filled with lasting gratitude and love.”
“A part of you has grown in me. Together forever we shall be. Never apart, maybe in distance, but not in the heart.”
“I always knew I’d look back at the tears and laugh, but I never thought that I’d look back at the laughs and cry.”
“. I dropped a tear in the ocean. The day you find it is the day I will stop missing you”
“You never leave someone behind, you take a part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind”
“Good-byes make you think. They make you realize what you’ve had, what you’ve lost and what you’ve taken for granted.”
“How lucky I am to have known someone who was so hard to say goodbye to.”
“Saying goodbye isn’t the hard part, it’s what we leave behind that’s tough”
“I learned to laugh, I learned to cry, but will I ever learn to say goodbye?”
“The loss of a friend is like that of a limb. Time may heal the anguish of the wound, but the loss cannot be repaired.”
memories don’t live like people do… wa lilahil hamd..
Comments:
As-Salaamu 'Alaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuh,
That blog is too emotional! You should warn the readers before getting so emotional. j/k.
AlHumdu-Lillah, everything is better with you in all three situations.
May Allaah shower you with blessings and happiness.
"May He facilitate for all your affairs"
Aameen.
That blog is too emotional! You should warn the readers before getting so emotional. j/k.
AlHumdu-Lillah, everything is better with you in all three situations.
May Allaah shower you with blessings and happiness.
"May He facilitate for all your affairs"
Aameen.
lol SubHan-Allaah, actually your blog is better then mine because i got nothing better to do in mine but complain.
May Allaah grant me patience, Aameen.
~TrueKnowledge
May Allaah grant me patience, Aameen.
~TrueKnowledge
aameen wa eyayyah.. nah man I love your blog.. lol mines useless.. at least your makes sense and isnt just bursts of emotions lol..
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