Alhamdulilah 'ala kulli haal.. I am very very very sick lol. Like so so so sick, and both yasi and UmmQaylah would agree :P. I called UmmQ the other day and she goes "you sound sick" and I said "nah im ok inshaAllah". Later that night I called Yasi and the whole time I'm coughing and she goes "omg meyeh are you ok" and I said ya inshaAllah. Then yesterdayyy I got mad sick and stayed in bed most of the day. When I called Yasi last night she was like "your still sick habeebti, you sound horrible" and I was just like "yea, I haven’t gotten up all day really" and appolgized for not doing something I promised her I would.
Spent yesterday in bed really.. I got up early and went online for a bit, and then when my parents got up I made breakfast for them and went back to sleep. Then got up later at like 4 and went back to bed at 5 and then got up later, helped with dinner/cleaned the kitchen and laid down in the living room till around 10.. went back to sleep at around 11 and called yasi only to get hung up on at 12.. dodgyness.
Alhamdulilah my time "in bed" gave me time to think about a lot of things and make sense of some stuff. One thing that was kinda weirdish/fun was my sister found my map of makkah/madinah and I just spent a good hour looking at and remembering things.. lol UmmQaylah remember our run away to madinah plan? Ahhh yes memories.. or the double wedding :P.
This is part of a conversation I just had with my little sisters best friend Dura, both are 11. lol I thought it was kinda cute.
dima~rima says:
i heard it is your last semaester
مريم says:
yes!!!!
مريم says:
and then im done with school
dima~rima says:
and your very happy
مريم says:
hehe ofcourse
dima~rima says:
how about rima
dima~rima says:
is she happy
dima~rima says:
huh is she happy
dima~rima says:
rima
مريم says:
i guess
مريم says:
she doesnt really care
مريم says:
she has alot of school left still
dima~rima says:
nooooooooooo about you fineshing off the computer alot and now she can use the computer
dima~rima says:
now
مريم says:
hmm
dima~rima says:
right plzzzzzzzz
مريم says:
just couse im done with my online classes (I still have one to do) doesnt mean I'm not going to use the computer anymore
مريم says:
so dont get your hopes up
dima~rima says:
uhhhhhhhhhhhh
dima~rima says:
arnt you tired from the computer
مريم says:
no?
مريم says:
arent you?
مريم says:
But I'll let her use it more
مريم says:
alot of times I really couldnt let her, couse I had tests and stuff
dima~rima says:
i know
مريم says:
now I dont have those really.. and I'm going to have to go offline to study so she'll use it more
dima~rima says:
ohhhhh
مريم says:
but she also has her school work.. mama said if she doesnt keep up with her school work she cant go online
مريم says:
u know how it is with moms
dima~rima says:
hehe
dima~rima says:
yes
dima~rima says:
i know i am actully not playing i am studiying about the blood circulation
dima~rima says:
in arabic
مريم says:
nice mashaAllah
dima~rima says:
does rima know anything about it
مريم says:
I dunnu.. I dont teacher her, yet...
dima~rima says:
YOU MEAN YOU WILL BE TEACHING HER .......YOU
dima~rima says:
unbeleivabel
مريم says:
when im done with HS ya..
مريم says:
hey dont hate on me
dima~rima says:
hate
مريم says:
inshaAllah imma get a teaching degree
dima~rima says:
???
whta does that mean
مريم says:
so this will be good practice
مريم says:
it means like dont get on my case
مريم says:
something like that
dima~rima says:
your going to be a teacher when you grow up inchaalah
مريم says:
inshaAllah..
مريم says:
after I get my islamic studies degree.. or maybe at the same time Allahu 'aalam.. we'll see
مريم says:
me and some of my friends wanna open an Islamic school together
dima~rima says:
coool
dima~rima says:
i the dora will be inchaallah a docter of birth ....you might think that is sort of gros but i think i am ready for that AND i LOOOOVVVEEE babies
مريم says:
mashaAllah
مريم says:
ya I was thinking about that too.. but I like teaching.. and its less years of school
dima~rima says:
what ????!!!!
dima~rima says:
ya
مريم says:
you know my moms a nurse?
dima~rima says:
when
مريم says:
now.
dima~rima says:
what is a nurse
مريم says:
its like a doctors assitant
مريم says:
u know
مريم says:
mumarida
dima~rima says:
assistant of birth
مريم says:
haha no not really
مريم says:
they do more than that
dima~rima says:
yaaa
مريم says:
ask ur mom to tell u what it is in tunisi
dimma~rima says:
soo she goes to work?????????
مريم says:
nooo
dima~rima says:
then what
مريم says:
she studiedt o be one
dima~rima says:
and she didnt be 1
مريم says:
ya she did
مريم says:
she worked in egypt, and she worked here in the us
dima~rima says:
ohhhhhhhhhh
dima~rima says:
coool
مريم says:
yup
dima~rima says:
sooooooo'
مريم says:
I'm not feeling good
dima~rima says:
is hs eawake yet
مريم says:
huh?
dima~rima says:
yyyyyyyyyyy
مريم says:
oh no shes not
Alhamdulilah Alhamdulilah Alhamdulilah, I finished all of my semester classes yesterday!! Right now I only have to finish my one non semester class, and then 4 more non online classes and inshaAllah I'll be done with Highschool.
This semester has been somewhat crazy for me. With the move, all the traveling, a bunch of problems especially at the start of it, not having internet for a while and just some other stuff I had enough excuses not to finish my classes, and at times that’s what I felt like doing. I just felt like forgetting all about them and I really didn’t care if I failed lol. I mentioned that to my mom a couple times, and everytime I would she would give me a lecture, one that I guess I wont forget it would make me work again. I promised her I'd finish, and alhamdulilah I was able to fulfill it.
The past week I've been working almost non stop to finish my last class, the teachers nice but the class was full of broken links and unclear instructions which made it hard for me to finish so I left it for the end, bad choice. Right up until the last minute yesterday I still hadn’t finished my final lol. On Thursday I was so ready to give up on it, I asked Tassnym what grade letter 76% was and she goes " it’s a C. OMG YOU HAVE A C. what class?" and I told her that’s what I had in the class so far if I didn’t finish, and that I wasn’t planning to. And she told me "its up to you, you worked this hard just to mess up your record now? Man if it was me and I had the chance and time to change it I would, but you know its up to you.. go ahead if u want" and that got me all fired up and I finished the work lol.
Anyways alhamdulilah :D I is happy. So far next semester I HAVE to take geometry and biology.. and two more credits worth of work.. might take another language, even though when you apply to uni etc Arabic is sufficient as a second language, in order to graduate with it as my second language I gotta prove that I know it etc and that’s just annoying.. and it wont hurt to learn another one.. that would be one credit and I dunnu about the last one still thinking..
Alhamdulilah I had a pretty good 'Eid. It wasn’t because of what I did but rather who I was with. Like spending time with people that really mean a lot to me and stuff. I think the downside for me was that there were other people that I really missed during my time away, lol it was weird all day I'd be busy and having a lot of fun and then I'd lay down at night thinking about the other people that I was missing because I wasn’t home etc. :S. Yesterday when we were leaving Corvallis it was probably the hardest time, I really really wished I didn’t have to, at the same time I kinda wanted to.. parting is such a sweet sorrow innit.
My dad got home from work Wednesday night and just about everything was ready. Everyone else was packed, the house was ready, car was packed. Only person that hadn’t packed yet was me. It wasn’t that I was playing around all day or anything, I was working since I got up but there was just to much to do. Even with that I had planned it perfectly so I'd be ready when he gets home. I went offline around maghrib time was going to take a shower pray and pack before he gets back but while I was cleaning the kitchen I somehow (until now I cant figure out how) I cut myself down the front of my hand cutting the vain open and NOTHING would stop the blood. So I wrapped my hand finished the kitchen fast and ran upstairs so my mom wouldn’t see. By the time I had showered and wrapped my hand good and started packing my dad was back and he got all mad at me, even though he hadn’t packed or eaten yet. It was so annoying like even my sister who never sticks up for me told him "baba shes been working all day wallahi". Anyways alhamdulilah 'ala kulli haal I'm used to it.
By the time we left it was around 7:30 or so. At first I just kinda laid down in the back with my CD player listening and trying not to fall asleep even though I was dead tired. Then as usual when my mom starts getting sleepy I go up front and have to stay awake the rest of the trip. So about halfway to Portland I go up front even though I'm like mad at my dad still lol. When we get to Portland my dad goes out to get us (me and him) coffee and my mom and sis are like we'll go with you. I was like YES go go go please lol. So I took the cell and called yasi :D. It was a little before 11. We got to Corvallis at exactly 11:59. By the time we took our bags outa the car, got ready for bed and stuff it was almost 1. Having not slept the two days before (as yasi would acknowledge) I was so so so tired. My dad was like "I drove this whole way so I can pray Salaat al Eid. 7:30 sharp your ready or I'm leaving anyway". When I feel like I have to get up like that I don’t sleep good, I get up every hour or so just to make sure I don’t miss it, and I had promised my mom to wake her up so I got up at 3:30, 5, 5:30, 6, and finally got up and outa bed at 6:30. Took a quick shower, prayed fajr, and was ready.
When we got to the masjid not to many people were there yet but it was still kinda full. As soon as I walked in I saw Umm AbdulQudoos and I was like yaaaaay lol. Went up to her gave her a hug and we talked for a bit. MashaAllah AbdulQudoos like grew and hes walking now habeebi. The first day of 'Eid couse of all the people and stuff he was scared and didn’t want to come to me to much but after that we became buddies again. A little later, I'm standing by the stairs and I saw Tassnym walking up. I had the biggest smile on my face and so did she. I gave her like the biggest hug and then I saw her mom walking up behind her and I let go of her and was like KHALA FAYKAH!!! subhanAllah I would have NEVER thought I'd miss her mom more than her lol. She was like MARYAM!! And we gave each other a hug, neither one wanting to let go. And she was like "wallahi ashtaqtilik kateer ya habeebti" and I was like "ana aktar". After that me and Tassnym talked for a bit, said salaams to more people then went into the Musalaah to wait for salaah.
When we went into the musalah me and UmmAbdulQudoos started fighting like physically fighting lol over whos going to sit next to khala Faykah. I won :D and she was like "tayyeb ya Maryam just wait till we go out of the musalah" lol. While we were waiting for salaah khala Faykah just kept holding my hand and hugging me and was like ya Allah I miss you so much. She showed me the burns from kay on her feet :(. The khutbah was pretty long and about 3/4 of the way into it she could sit any more but she wouldn’t lay down. Me, khala Ghada, khala Aisha were like lay down and she was like laa laa I'll wait some more, finally she couldn’t take it and she layed down lol.
After the khutbah we went out and just chilled. Me and Tassnym wore almost the same thing without meaning to :O lol. So we just talked, went around saying salaams and catching up on each others news, ate, and just had a good time. UmmAbdulQudoos took henna with her and had all the little (younger than 10) girls sit down and kept them quiet by putting henna on their hands for them. When we did leave the masjid it was around 11. Tassnym and her mom went home since khala was tired, but a group of us went around na'ayid 'ala al nass like we usually do. The last person we went to was khala UmmAbdurRahman. It was around 1. when we were there khala Ghada was like "after this everyone come over to my house and we'll cook and have lunch/dinner together." Some said they couldn’t but a pretty big group of us went. Me and khala Aisha said we would walk(her house is like a block away) , and UmmAbdulQudoos my mom and my sis said they would walk too but after a while.
When we got there it was me, khala Ghada, and a few more khalas. The khalas all sat in the living room talking and stuff while me and khala Ghada cooked, since it was her day to cook for khala Faykah and she had to cook yusif ammar and 'amu when they got back from the farms and she had to cook for all the people over at her place. Alhamdulilah that was a lot of fun. We get along really well and it was just fun. In general I like to cook and I enjoy it and when I'm doing it with people I love then I like it even more. So we cooked, and joked, and just had fun together. We made two kinds of rice, fish for khala faykah's, waraq 'anib, meat, mulukhiya Syrian style lol, salad and some other stuff. She had already made ma'mool the day before so we didn’t make any sweets. lol it was funny the next day I told Tassnym that I cooked with khala Ghada and she goes "when I was eating I could tell, it just tasted like you cooked it" and I was like "wow my cooking is that bad?" lol.
When we had finished all the work and everything was just cooking the rest of them showed up. Around that time I decided I could slip away and go check my emails. So I did that, answered a couple and was about to start talking to people on msn when Yusif comes home even though his dad didn’t end up coming home till way late after maghirb. His mom was like "what are you doing home" and he said that he slaughtered, gutted, cleaned, and cut three sheep and that he told his dad he couldn’t do anymore. Anyways I had to leave the front room and go back to the kitchen lol. In a way that was a good thing couse it was about time to serve the food and put khala Faykahs in things to send to her, and then yusif took them to her and left. After we ate and ate dessert it was past maghrib, everyone but me mama and my sis left. Khala Ghada had wanted me to show her some stuff online so I sat back online and started going through things for her. I also went on msn and left UmmQ a couple messages lol before signing off since everyone was with me. Their computer is like messed up big time so I downloaded some things and was working on taking off some of the viruses when she gets a call that guests are coming. So my mom was like its ok we'll go to khala UmmAbdurRahmans since we knew 'amu wasn’t there (he was with my dad at amu qais's bbqing and eating from the 'udhiyas).
We stayed at UmmAbdurRahman's until almost 11. Those 5 hours or so have got to have been some of the craziest/funniest/funnest of the whole trip lol. It was us, khala umm AbdurRahman, khala UmmAbdullah (Rasha), khala Khalida, and Layna(her American name is Layna but everyone calls her Leena now), and ofcourse the three boys ('aboodi, Abdullah, and the other AbdurRahman(aka bunu). At first we were all sane, talking and stuff. Then my mom and Leena started talking about some serious stuff, me khala Umm Abdullah, Khala Umm AbdurRahman started getting crazy, Khala Khalida and my sister started watching us like we were crazy :D. What started it was they wanted to help me prepair some things for the hafla the next day and my sis was bugging us so we wanted to get her to go take care of the kids but she wouldn’t so we ended up doing it :/. lol man I still cant believe how we were acting lol. We played karasee (musical chairs), warda maftuha warda maskuka (something like ring around the rosey) and you know just acted all crazy lol.
After about an hour of complete crazyness we sat back down and kept on it but this time we were picking on each other. Like me and khala UmmAbdullah would start picking on khala UmmAbdurRahman and then theyd team up on me and so on lol. Khala Khalida wanted to leave at around 9 so khala Umm Abdullah was like ok fine but you have to play namshay with me first, khala Khalida not knowing what it is agrees lol. So UmmAbdullah is like ok Maryam give me both your hands, khalida same thing and she puts in one of her hands and she starts. Its something like ink a dink, and bubble gum etc but its about 1578/7854 times longer and she was going finger finger not hand hand lol. Ya Allah it was fun alhamdulilah and we had a good time, laughed a lot lol.. at around that time the kids come to me and are like tell us the story of yusif 'alayhi assalam. So I tell it to them for the gazillionth time and then Abdullah is like I want to tell u a story but he was shy to say it infront of everyone so he made me and aboodi go to the other room. After each one of them has told about ten stories they start attacking me lol. Like dude a five year old and two three year olds were jumping on me and I guess trying to re inact what they saw the 'amus do with the sheeps earlier :P. They were having fun though so I let them until I had had enough and was bruised enough.
We went home with Khala Khalida, the men were still there hadn’t even prayed 'isha yet. I was so so tired so I just like changed put my blanket on the floor and layed down with everyone else (mama, khala, sis) still in the room even though I didn’t end up sleeping for another couple hours.
The morning my dad wakes me up and is like "yellah me and Amu Kais are going to 'amu Mohammad Salah's office to pick up the order for your test when I get back I want you ready so we can go get them done couse I have things to do before jumu'a". The LAST thing I want to do is get dragged to the hospital the morning of the second day of 'Eid but I was like khair whatever. We saw my brothers car parked infont of the ER area and my dad was like what is he doing here, later on when we were leaving and going to go back see what was up with him he was leaving to and my dad cut him off lol so he stopped and he told us he was there to get an MRI couse of his back or whatever.
I have to say this was the worst part of my trip, getting the blood drawn. I've had blood drawn before a lot but only twice was it half ok, the time they did it for me in the ER and another time. Every other time it sucks. I either get poked to many times, get my vain punctured or something. This time the lady didn’t know what the hell she was doing or something. Couse first she punctured my left arm not up where she should but like half way down so it hurt bad, then she kept tying my right arm and untying then my left then she pocked my right arm. At this point my dads like what the hell and he comes into the room and they get into an argument lol. I'm sitting with my arm tied and like when I get blood draw, especially recently, it doesn’t hurt but I just get really dizzy and feel all weird, so the other technician noticed I wasn’t feeling good and untied my arm for me. Anyways finally she got what she wanted, but by the time she had I was out of it. I couldn’t even stand up. Alhamdulilah it was done with though.
When we got back the first thing I did was look for candy lol. I found a bag of mini snickers and ate a couple which made me feel a bit better. Then my mom told me I had to eat something with milk in it so I had cereal and started getting ready couse me and my sis were supposed to go to UmmAbdulQudoos's. So my dad dropped us off there and him and mma went to salaat al juma'.
Had alota fun at UmmAbdulQudoos's alhamdulilah. As soon as we walked in Qoossy started laughing and jumping I was like habeeeeeeeebiiiiii lol. I guess he remembered when we came over, couse of the two weeks we spent together or something. But ya it was the cutest thing. It was a little before jumu'a and we thought Jalal would come back and change since he was at Uni so first thing we did was iron like three thoubs for him so he could pick what he wanted lol. He ended up not coming so ya great lol.
After we were sure that he wasn’t coming we started doing henna. MashaAllah 'alayha UmmQoossy is good at it. She did both of my hands up my arm. And then started on my sister did one and a half when Jalal came home. He told her that he was inviting brothers over for dinner and stuff so she finished my sister fast and started cooking, he left to uni again. We had promised her neighbors (sister best friend) that we would come over for a bit and I wanted to check my email and stuff so when the henna dried a bit we went. That’s the only time I really got to sit online and stuff. After about fifteen mins I told my sis we had to go back so we ran back across the street and to UmmQoossy's. I was getting really really impatient couse I wanted to help Ummqoossy cook and stuff since we had to leave at maghrib and the henna was getting in my way lol so I was like at 4 I'm washing it off I don’t care what color it turns out, and I did alhamdulilah turned out good though. My dad was supposed to pick us up but he was at someones house and couldn’t so we ended up calling khala Radia so we were kinda late to get to the masjid lol, and ya Tassnym killed me for that.
omg omg I forgot lol. We dressed AbdulQudoos in a thoub and I got him one of my old small white hijabs and we put it like a ghutra for him awwwwwww ya Allah he looked so cute. Then Jalal wrapped it around yemani style and we put shoes on him habeebi he looked so cute.
Anyways we got to the masjid lateish but alhamdulilah. Me and Tassnym somehow wore almost the same thing again :O, except this time Tassnym knew what I was gonna wear so I guess she did it on purpose. Alhamdulilah had a lot of fun. The program we had planned went pretty good, even though some of the things we couldn’t do. At the end the moms were crying :D lol. Tassnym sang this one nasheed and that was it they all cried. We were like wow. But alhamdulilah it went well and it was fun. After most of the people had left the masjid needed cleaning like a lot a lot couse of both days and all so me and Tassnym and some others worked on it which was nice alhamdulilah. We got some time to talk and chill together and it really felt like old times couse that’s how it would be. Last people to leave the masjid, cleaning, talking, and enjoying ourselves. That night we got to khala Khalida's at around 9:30/10. We hung out for a while and then went to bed at around 11:30.
Next morning we slept in lol. Like really really slept in. My dad and 'amu had been getting up from fajr each day, and then they would go out get coffee, watch tv etc and we would sleep. That day my dad came and woke me up it was around 10 or so he said he had things to do and he would be back later couse we were invited for dinner. So I got up and stuff, mama got up, sis got up, and then I ended up going laying on mama/baba's bed and laying down almost fell asleep when khala Khalida got up. So I went to help her make brunch lol. This was one of the funner/funniest times I've cooked. Khala Khalida starts doing commentary "first you take this and put it in that" etc, and then we start making fun of an arabi cooking show lol. The guy on it is Egyptian and speaks thick Egyptian slang so we TRIED to copy it LOL. Even though I'm masriyyah I cant speak it well and I don’t have the Egyptian tone of voice, my mom a little but me not at all. lol when me and yasi three wayed majida they were both clowning on my arabi accent the whole time saying I was a mix between khaleeji and shammy. Anyways so ya we did that the whole time we were cooking and my sister was like I DON’T KNOW YOU. lol because we cant speak Egyptian fluently we were trying to hard so it sounded really weird "fa ha nakhood al bata' dee, wan hutu fil saniya duh al gameela awy awy, wa nakhud shwaya min al salsa shufi helwa ad 'ay" lol anyways it was funny.
At first we were invited for dinner at Khala Majida's but 'amu called my dad in the morning and told him that he had to go see patients in Lincoln city so he had to cancel, because of that my dad accepted an invitation to khala Aisha's. Later in the day 'amu calls my dad again and tells him he was able to cancel all of his appointments and we were invited back so my dads like ok what do we do now, at the end all of us (them too) were invited to khala 'Aishas so we went. Before that though me mama and my sis went to Khala UmmAbdullahs for an hour or so, while we were there khala UmmAbdurRahman came and we had a nice time alhamdulilah.
Alhamduililah had a nice time at khala 'Aishas. As soon as I came in I like yelled (not really but kinda) at her couse her backs hurting her so bad she can barely walk yet she invited so many people etc. she laughed told me to be quiet. After dinner 'Amu Mohammad Salah had to go to the hospital couse one of his patients from Lincoln city came so khala Majida yelled out to him when he was leaving to check on my results or whatever. When he came back to pick her up a couple hours later he came in and everyones like "ya hala bil doctor" and he goes I'm leaving I just came to give you these results (to my dad) and then he goes "kul shay tamam alhamdulilah" and I was like alhaaaamdulilah (OMG I DIDN’T TELL U YET ZAINEB!!!!) so ya that really really made my day.
After we got back to 'amu Kais's it was around 9:30, my dad and 'amu headed over to 'amu AbuAbdurRahman and we chilled with khala Khalida. lol my sis was like do khala's hair for her so I did. Like straightened it and stuff and then my moms and then my sisters I was like damm what does this look like a salon? But it was fun lol . Drank like three cans of pepsi and slept at around 1.
Next morning got up packed everything in the car and stuff, sat with khala for a bit and then left. My dad had some errands to run and we tagged along. We were sitting in the car at the shopping center and we saw these two niqaabi's walking so we were like who is that, at first I thought it was khala Ghada then I realized it was Khala Naila and Dura (sisters best friend) so we all got out of the car and went in the store with them. So we went around shopping with them, they got AbdulQudoos this very very cute outfit and stuff. And then I found a skirt that I got UmmQoossy's sister in saudia (she took it with her for me) and I remembered how much she said she liked it so I found a shirt to match it and gave it to khala Naila to give to her since I knew I wasn’t going to see her again before I left.
After that we were invited over for lunch at khala Mervana's. Alhamdulilah that was nice too had fun left there around 4. We had to go pick up the rest of the 'udhiya on the way to salem and then my dad had some errands to run in salem. While we were in the car in salem I called UmmQaylah and we talked for like 15mins, but the battery was so low and I didn’t want to finish it so we had to hang up. lol you should have seen how we were talking, well me, couse my mom was sitting a couple feet away from me I was like talking in code. But ya my mom like loves her to bits lol so its all good.
Got home around 9:30, was pretty foggy on the way back especially the closer we were to the river. My dad got me chocolate in salem lol so I was eating that the whole way back :P. When we got home I was so so so so so so tired, just took a shower, prayed (didn’t even wait for them) and went to sleep.
Over all the trip was really nice alhamdulilah. I really wanted to write more but I cant now, and if you could tell the ends a lot more rushed than the beginning but alhamdulilah 'ala kulli haal maybe later.
I've been planning on making this post for the past week or so but kept getting busy, and now I'm so tired I cant remember everything I wanted to put in it but khair inshaAllah.
Alhamdulilah last 'Eid al-Adha was pretty nice. I remember my grandma came for like a week and she arrived the day before 'Eid or so. That whole day me and mama were very very busy cooking, cleaning and stuff. It was also finals time for me and I was stressing over that. The night of 'Eid I decided I'd stay up and try to get some work done. When I got on three people were on that I'd ditch my work for anyday lol. Tassnym, UmmQaylah, and X.
I remember it was the first time for UmmQaylah to be on in like a month and we talked and talked until maybe 12:30 or so my time. Tassnym and me still had some planning things for the next day and we talked until around the same time. After both of them went to bed I stayed online and continued talking to X until almost 2am my time. By then I had annoyed them enough (:P) and they were like "ok I better get going, maybe get some rest before fajr". Right as they said that my grandma got up and I was like "uh oh I better go" lol it was funny. So ya I went to bed late and was tired the next day.
The next morning we headed to the masjid for salaah or whatever and it was a good 'Eid alhamdulilah. There wasn’t anything super special that 'Eid but it was nice still. After salaah as usual there was breakfast and the men were all at the farm doing the 'udhiya, so after eating and stuff we all headed out and visited people till pretty late like 2 or so.
Because of my grandma being here that 'Eid I didn’t get to go out much or do a lot with my friends etc. Mostly stayed at home and online. One of the more simpler 'Eids but alhamdulilah still have so nice and some funny memories. This 'Eids going to be a lot different I think. Firstly because we don’t live there anymore, also its going to be the first time for me to see Tassnym in almost 7months. I guess every 'Eid is different and special in a different way, last 'eid was special for me in some ways and this 'Eid is going to be in different ways.
Last night was like really really fun lol. I called yasi at around 11:30 and we talked till about 12 and then she was like "I'm gonna go take a shower and call you back". So we hung up and I waited and waited, since I had the phone on silent I had to keep watching it so when it lights up I'd answer, and finally I fell asleep for like half hour. I got up at almost two? or something and I check the phone and she had called 4 times so I called her back lol. I guess she went to the store after showering and that’s why she was late in calling back..
We talked from then till 4:30! Alhamdulilah it was really nice, bess I'm gonna miss her when I leave for
At 4:30 yasi was like ok meyeh go cook and I'm going to bed and I was like nah I don’t feel like cooking anymore lol. But finally we got off the phone and I dragged myself downstairs. So I came down started cooking or whatever, came online talked for a bit to someone probably for last time before I leave today which was nice. My plan was to finish everything, set the sufra, and sneek upstairs and sleep till fajr. Everything was going good, had everything ready, kitchen clean, and was just waiting for the last of the bread to finish backing and my mom got up, I was like its ok I can still go and then my sis got up and khalaas that was it, no sleep for me. Alhamdulilah 'ala kulli haal though, made my parents happy that I got up and stuff so its all good.
I seriously got way to much to do and I'm way to tired…
*Send in psych hw
*Make changes to ISEnglish final + send it in
*Finish laundry + ironing
*Burn CD for tassnym (download + burn)
*Burn CD for Khala Ghada (download, convert, edit, burn)
*Pack
*Pack the car before baba gets home
*Find the hadiths 4 tassnym wa send them to her
*blog update that I've been wanting to do the past 3 days
*Get a phone card.
*GET SOME SLEEP!
And a buncha other stuff :(.
My sister took this picture a couple days ago :
I've "had" a cell once in my life lol for about a year and ever since then I've really wanted one. It was just fun I guess, texting in the middle of the night, getting in trouble at the masjid when the phone goes off etc lol.
At first my dad was on verizon with really good plan or whatever so he added another phone for my mom on and that became my phone, when my brother messed up the account my dad switched to sprint and my mom no longer had a phone.. then baba switched to at&t and again mama said she doesn’t need a phone. About a month ago baba's fed up with the at&t service so he tells my mom to get a phone with verizon so at least we'll have that phone working when the other one doesn’t (two year contract). So I got all happy thinking I'm getting the phone again, couse mama doesn’t use it at all, and then my dad looses his cell in
Its like 7 and I'm up, why I don’t know. Last night my dad had me go clean his car with him until like 10. Like really clean it lol. First take everything out and then vacuum and then scrub and then dry. My mom got mad couse it was freezing and we were out in the garage. She was like "your sick and your going to get more sick, and you'll be to scared to tell me" lol. It was nice though couse all the snow had melted the day before and it was snowing hard with about an inch or two already on the ground it was all fluffy/powdery, me and baba would go out to the drive way and it was fun lol..
no I didnt write this... just seen to many people go through this :(..
Where is the 'love' now?
I ask with a frown
As tears roll into my eyes
I wipe them away, and wonder why?
Why the 'love' that once was so true
No longer exists between me and you
So now as you break my heart and depart
I wonder if you even have a heart
As I look back over the years
I remember the pain and tears
Depression and sorrow over took me
A part of me I could never set free
So where were you then?
And where are you now?
As I suffer in silence
I ask with a frown
Where was your 'love' then?
And where is your 'love' now?
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InshaAllah the coming few weeks until the beginning of next month I'm going to be really really busy so I might not get around to posting as much. Also my status on msn is going to be set on busy most of the time, but feel free to bother me.
Its coming to the end of the semester, with only 18 days left and a lot more work than I would have liked. So inshaAllah I have to try and get ontop of all of it and get through this last grueling semester of to many classes.
Apart from all the school work me and Tassnym have taken on a project for this Eid and theres a lot of work to be done in that. The idea is to try and rally some of the other girls and take over the womens eid "party" this eid. The theme we are working on is moms, we want to show ours how much we appreciate them. So ya inshaAllah we're going to all pitch in, cook the food, buy the presents, organize the entertainment, and just do all we can.. Right now its in planning stage, picking the nasheeds to sing, the poems, the skits, the introductions and all that, then we have to actually pass out tasks and get that done.. so I got a lot to do until the beginning of feb..
Alhamduillah its easy for me to get along with people, ya'ani I make friends easy alhamdulilah, but that’s all they are friends. I'll joke with them, hang out with them, and juss chill and stuff but I wont get super close to a lot of people. The ones I do get super close to, the ones that I really really love, are few and I'd do anything for them. Its also super hard on me to be apart from them, to fight with them, to upset them and so on. They become like the most important thing to me..
Throughout the years its been different people, but for the past year and half – two years I think six people have made the most difference for me. Kept me going, kept me sane, always there, always making me smile, I know I could trust them with anything and they just mean the world to me…
I love you Al-X .. One of the bestest friends and people I've ever met..
I love you Umm Qaylah.. What can I say, words cant describe how I feel about you..
I love you Stuck.. Your like one of the greatest people I know, and one of the best friends I have…
I love you Yasi ( even though I know u don’t read this anymore :P)
I love you Tassnym (Even though I'm never giving you the link to this blog)
I love you Zaineb.. yes I didn’t forget ya, girl I cant believe its been 4 years since I saw you last…
Ya Allah!!!!!!!! I cant believe it lol.. I'm on talking to zaineeeeb solving her math for her, bored etc, and then Umm AbdulQudoos comes on and goes "you know khala Faykah's here??" and I'm like "WALLAHI" and she goes "they got to Corvallis last night" then shes like "yellah I have to go assaalamu 'alaikum" without even giving me a chance to respond..
I still cant believe it lol.. everytime someone would tell me they are coming back or they'll be here by such and such date I'd be like nah they aren’t watch and see.. and everytime I'd be right.. this time everyone was telling me and again I said nope not happening watch and I was proved wrong… alhamdulilah! The only thing that sucks like really sucks is we wont be going down to Corvallis again till eid, couse baba is like way over his days off and couse of the weather…
I was looking at emails and I just noticed the date on one email, that’s like special or whatever.. Jan 7th 2004. and I couldn’t believe its been a year. subhanAllah.. this email has been like I don’t know how to say it lol, Umm Qaylah understands though couse it was to her too.. its so much more than "just an email" :/. The funny thing for me though is the email ontop of it in my account is the email I was supposed to send the person but didn’t know how to finish it so I ended telling them what we wanted to tell them on msn.. its kinda weird to read what I had written now.. but the other email, ahh I think I've read it at least 70 times.. lol.. at least I don’t have it printed out and put in a "special" folder like some people :P
It's been two weeks since I left
I used to stay up till fajr most nights couse if I didn’t we'd miss fajr, so after fajr I'd be dead tired and would sleep a couple hours, sometimes we would all sleep in the living room and other days each would sleep in their bedrooms.. The days we would sleep in the living room he'd get up and crawl to me, look me and the face and start blabbering away in baby talk, and the days we wouldn’t his mom would bring him to the room put him on my bed and he'd do the same thing till I got up lol.
I miss
This seems to be some big discussion going around and I've stayed out of it lol, but yesterday someone pmed me and starts debating with me on the issue which was fun.
They started off by saying "ok sis I have a questions, personality or appearance" and I said "personality" and they go "personality???" "I'm talking about when looking for a potential spouse" and I said "ya I know, personality" and it went from there. They trying to prove to me that deep down looks are more important for me and me saying that it was personality lol. Their proof was they asked me "so say Abdullah and Mansur both ask for your hand, both are same level in deen and all but Abdullah has better looks who would u pick" and I said "Abdullah" so they seem to think they caught me or whatever lol. I had to go get dinner ready so I told them I'll finish the argument tomorrow. And I know I can win it because of something they said before lol.
ya'ani to be honest of course looks are important but they aren’t the most important for me. Someones personality and adherence to the deen is more important, and as long as they look good I'm fine with it. Some people that I know personally though wouldn’t even consider someone that doesn’t have like the best looks, so people are different. The funny thing is from all people I'd think this one person knows my opinion enough to at least not argue lol couse they aint changing it…
I need to get a new abayah, like really really need to lol and a new niqaab wouldn’t hurt either. But like I want a regular abayah not another one of those fancy ones :/. As of now I have 5 which would be way more than enough alhamdulilah but the thing is only two of them are "practical" everyday ones and ones getting short and is ripped and like worn out and the other ones long but very worn out. The other three abayahs; one isn’t very fancy so its pretty worn out as well couse I use it all the time and one is fancy but not super, but like I cant wear it all the time and the third is VERY fancy so I've worn it like once. As for niqaabs I had 3 so I was fine then a couple weeks ago when my sis and her friend started niqaab I gave each of them one and then someone else gave my sis one so she has two and I have one, nice eh?
So ya, I was looking at abayahs and they are expensive!! Around $50 each! And I'm broke as usual lol, actually I think I have $10.. my dad would get it for me but I don’t like asking for things so I'm not asking so I guess I'll wait till after eid then I'll have enough :/. The annoying thing is if I were to have someone get me some from saudia it would cost between 5$-30$ depending on what quality you want and here if you buy they make you pay like double.
Another annoying thing is its really hard to find an all black one, all of them are colored and when you do find a black one it has to much embroidery lol and I have enough of those. The main problem with those is they aren’t made for everyday use its more of an occasion one and they will rip and get worn way to fast, whereas the others I've had for like 2-3 years, played basketball, gone swimming, and done just about everything else in them and I can still wear them..
At best what I found online is something like
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and then wear it on the reverse side.
http://www.alhannah.com/products/ab243.html
http://www.alhannah.com/products/ab264.html
Those ones are actually pretty nice but again $50, and you could get them for at least half.. so after eid inshaAllah.. oh ya niqaabs another $10 - $15 :/ lol
I got up sick today alhamdulilah. My mom told me that’s what I get when I don’t take good care of myself.. ya whatever. I cant concentrate on work now so khair inshaAllah.. at the same time I cant go to sleep so I'm stuck doing just about nothing. Juss sitting here looking outside at the snow drinking some herbish teaish thing, ya'know the thing moms give you when your sick lol.
The weather has seriously been so cold the past couple weeks, unlike
subhanAllah I feel so exhausted :(. The past week hasn’t been to good of one and I'm just so exhausted emotionally and physically. Ever since I got back from
"To love is nothing, to be loved is something.. to love and be loved is everything"
As is known I was supposed to go to Hajj with my uncle this year but things didn’t work out. The way the trip was set was we were going to go to a few countries in south-east Asia first since my uncle had things to do there and then Hajj and possibly go to
