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UpDaTe

hmm haven't really gotten around to updating this thing in the past while. Not much has happened really.. The situations the same or worse now but Alhamdulilah me myself am doing better. lol actually the day I wrote the last entry I was a wreck, even when I ended up posting it later that night I was doing better. And like now when I read it I'm like wow I was flippin out to much. Maybe I should ban myself from posting when I'm on an emotional rant :P Allahu 'aalam

As for whats been up.. allotta sleepin(during the day :P), allotta reading, allotta chllin with my sister, allotta cooking, and ofcourse ALLOTTA homework. School sucks as usual but alhamdulilah. I needa get my textbook from CV (Cresent Valley Highschool) but haven't gotten around to that either.

I said I was going to update my other blog three days ago but haven't done that. InshaAllah I'll try to do it today. I somewhat finished the four principles but I didn't do notes for the last two so inshaAllah I'll do that today. I finished the book and listend to the CD's a few times.. I'm almost done with the Quran book but I havent done alot of notes, usually first time I read something I dont second time I do. so ya.. anyways.. I'm getting dissed pretty bad by a khala on msn LOL so I guess I'll write more later inshaAllah (also when Im more awake and can actually make sense).

chotu-meyeh @ 9/29/2004 12:30:00 PM #|

.:Friday, September 24, 2004:.

Alhamdulilah 'ala kulli haal.. me need ur duaas..

I wrote this earlier today... i guess its a temporary goodbye.. at least from blogging.. ahh Allahu 'aalam..

As salaamu 'alaikum wa rahamatullahi wa barakaatuhu,
I just wanted to write and let all of you that read this or that I talk to that I most likely wont be coming online to much for the next while. Actually Allahu 'aalam when the next time I will be coming on is unless I can somehow get this computer(mine) to work right. now I am on it with the mouse not workin lol and im doing tab tab to get to everything. I have dial up on it for now but I cant use it except late at night (12-6am my time). InshaAllah I will try to check and respond to my emails as best as I can, and if I cant keep up I'll call Zaineb up and have her read to me and respond for me my emails. For all of you that have my number go ahead and call as long as its not a weekend. And for those of you that I have ur numbers I'll give you call inshaAllah.. And if I dont have your number and you would like me to call email it to me inshaAllah.. (yo stucko want me to run up your peak minutes :P). hmm oh ya Zaineb u read this give me a call (jumaah our time tomorrow, or anytime after 5 on sunday.. lol I know u got free mins on the weekends so ya.. and anytime other than that except weekends) or email me your number, its on my other computer and I cant get to it, either that or I'll call up Dania and get it from her inshaAllah.. btw I'm not exactly in trouble, its a long complicated story that involves alot of my problems, and I dont really feel like posting it up on the blog.. but ya if and when I talk to any of you I guess I'll tell you..

khair inshaAllah.. I ask all of you to keep me in your duaas. If you have ever cared about me or if I ever meant anything to any of you show it by makin sincere duaa for me right now. Alhamdulilah 'ala kulli haal.. things are just going I guess.. not good but alhamdulilah.. There is nothing I want more than to speak to some of you right now.. I seriously just wish I could.. even if its the last time.. :(. ya Allah.. alhamdulilah 'ala kulli haal..

I want all of you (the 6 that I gave this link to..) that I really really appreciate all you've done for me. All the times you have been there for me, and all the happieness and memories you entered into my heart. Allahu 'aalam how much I will get to talk to you from now on, I might never.. but I want you all to know that I will never forget you and that you made a difference in my life.

wallah right now as I'm writting this I cant help but cry. No matter how hard I am trying to keep them in I cant.. Ya Allah.. I'm trying to stay strong through all thats happening but I cant. I'm getting weaker. :(. I dont know what to do anymore, or what choices to make. Everything I ever wanted to hold onto is slipping through my fingers. I'm writting this and I dont even know if I will ever get the chance to post it. khair inshaAllah please please keep me in your duaas.. and inshaAllah I'll try to stay in thouch, phone, email or whatever..
wallahi I love you all for the sake of Allah swt.. anyways.. take care..was salaamu 'alaikum wa rahamatullahi wa barakaatuhu..

chotu-meyeh @ 9/24/2004 01:59:00 AM #|

.:Monday, September 20, 2004:.

Real education ..

I got to talk to Tassnym a little this morning with everyone asleep lol.. it was kinda funny couse I had the speakers so so so so so low so no one would wake up and I was whispering.. anyways, she’s been going through a lot of “tough” situations ever since she went to saudia. A lot of deaths and sicknesses and responsibility that she wasn’t used to. Tassnyms always been a studying type person but other than that shes kinda like ermm spoiled? Not spoiled but like naive about things kinda.. actually I don’t know what the right word is.. anyway..

One thing me and Tassnym would never agree on was education. She was always like you gotta study get good grades blah blah. And I would tell her ya that’s all good but the true education is what you get out of school, its what makes you know how to live life. We got into a few fights and stuff about it, but at the end we were like whatever we each got our own opinion no big deal..

So today we were talking and she goes ”Maryam you know a child that goes to school but doesn’t experience things out of it wont learn anything”and I was just like “ya that’s what I’ve been trying to tell you all this time”. And she was like “ya but you have to actually live it to understand, even though everyone is in school now and I’m not, I don’t feel like I’m not learning. Actually I feel I’m learning more than I would if I was in school. Wallah all that’s been happening this past month or so, its taught me so much.”

I was just like subhanAllah.. in a way I was surprised that Tassnym would ever say that, but I guess she finally felt it.. but its true the experiences that one gains from situations in life you could never learn it in years of school.. and ya I was happy Tassnym finally agreed with me.

chotu-meyeh @ 9/20/2004 06:00:00 PM #|

English help..

Ok so the way my english class is set up is that you get to choose what u want to study within certain guidelines and according to your needs. So my teacher is setting mine up as a college pre with focus on research papers. The main assignment or like thing is the final which should be a pretty lengthy detailed paper.. a lot of the other assignments are branched from it, including the books I read. Couse she wants them to tie in with what I’m going to do the paper on. Now, she knows im doing it on something Islamic and so do I.. but I have no clue what I should do it on. And I have to tell her by wensday and pick the books so she can plan out the rest. So ya I need help thinking something up :/

chotu-meyeh @ 9/20/2004 10:09:00 AM #|

Day 3 of 10..

Todays the 4th day of my dads 10 day vacation, and the 3rd day since my grandma got here.. and yes as you all can tell I’m sour about it lol. but ya I got my reasons. From the first of them is I really really wanted to go to cali. Like I had stuff planned already : (. Me and Umm Layth had planned our trips so we could meet up in San Diego, and then they had to change everything.. ahh alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal.. who knows what's best.

Anyways yesterday wasn’t all that bad. I’m dead tired but other than that I’m aight I guess. Yesterday I slept at like 1 and was up at fajr lol so I slept maybe 4 hours. And it was funny couse everyone else got up at like 11. My grandma was the next person to get up and shes diabetic so as soon as she got up she wanted me to make her something to eat. And I was like what? And she said to make her boiled eggs.. lol I don’t like them or their smell or anything so I don’t really know how to cook them. I was standing in the kitchen laughing at myself couse I know how to cook like complicated things but when it comes to making a boiled egg I’m lookin at it like I’m Tassnym or something. alhamdulilah at the end I ended up making it right :P

At like 12:30 my brother came so I was like alhaaaaaaamdulilahh and I went to my room and got into my bed and slept. lol ok well not really slept but rested. Until 2 my sister comes and is like “GET UP *insert ummqs real name* IS ON THE PHONE” and I gave her one look, told her to get outa here and she goes “no talk”. And then I realized what shes saying grabbed the phone and said “get out”.. hehe ummq felt so bad that I got woken up. but alhamdulilah. I had to get up and pray dhuhr anyway.

hmm ya not alota interesting stuff been happening. Been tryin to avoid fights and stuff. lol even my dad sometimes looses patience but alhamdulilah. One thing that was funny, me and my dad were messin around, like he put his hat on me and I took it put it on backwards and my dad would put it right and we just kept on messin around and stuff. and my grandma yells at both of us and then tells my dad to go do ruqya for her (my mom was but she felt like ordering him around) and I was like ooooo baba got someone to order him around.. and he told me to shut up.. lol..

anyways there are a couple other things I wanna post about but my grandma just got up and I have to get her something to eat.. she hasn’t been up three mins and shes already getting on my case : ( khair inshaAllah..

chotu-meyeh @ 9/20/2004 09:41:00 AM #|

.:Saturday, September 18, 2004:.

ahhh whatever..

lol I know I said I wouldn’t update this thing for the next week or whatever but I’m bored and I don’t got anything better today. Today’s been kinda boring my baba and sis been gone since the morning, they went up to Portland to pick up my grandma and my dad had some stuff to take care of there before the flight came in. They aren’t home yet, should be in a bit though. hmm spent most of the day helping my mama and trying to get paltalk to work. and right now Im hungry and everything smells so good and ofcourse I cant touch anything till everyone gets back. Oh wait, my brothers are coming so that means I don’t get to eat until hmm around midnight? eh alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal. Gonna get a nice nap though :P.

Me and my English teacher (denny) finally decided on a what I’m going to be doing this semester lol. she asked what do I want to study and I said “islam” and she goes fine as long as you write in english. (last year I wrote a story as part of my hw and it was half in arabi, and then there was the case of me yassmean and Tassnym attacking the class message board with arabi messages :P) so anyways she said she’s gonna do it as a “college prep english with a focus on research papers” and that I could do the papers on whatever I wanted, including islam. :D so ya am happy about that.

mannn I needa start up my hifdh again :(. subhanAllah u guys don’t know how down I am about this. Like wallah I want nothing as much as I want to get back on track, but I need someone on my back. Like not threatening me but u know checkin up on me.. and ever since Tassnym left and some other stuff.. ah Allahu ‘aalam

chotu-meyeh @ 9/18/2004 05:55:00 PM #|

.:Friday, September 17, 2004:.

A week off..

As salaamu ‘alaikum wa rahamatullahi wa barakaatuhu,

inshaAllah most likely I wont be posting for the next week or so, until around the 26th. My baba has the time off of work and my grandma gonna be here so I’m going to be busy and stuff. InshaAllah I will come online early mornings my time though (from fajr until everyone gets up) and whenever else I can so I’ll still answer emails and chat some but I don’t think I’ll have time to post.. bess we will see..

as for the notes blog same thing with that, inshaAllah I will have a lot of free time in my room during the next week and so (ahh if only I fixed my computer : ( ) so inshaAllah imma start on some of the books and take notes and then when everythings back to normal I’ll post those up.. As for the rest of the four principles inshaAllah I’ll post them up then too couse me don’t got time now..

anyways just thought Id post that up.. not that it would really make a difference to anyone.. hmm what else oh ya I got my school account stuff set up.. (well at least some of it)so ya you guys know the drill :P anyones free to do my hw lol..
http://my.oregonstate.edu/
sign in name : adhamma
password: work4Allah (A gotta be capitale)

this is only for career learning and english class so far.. geography ill look up the link.. and I dunnu other classes aren’t set up yet.. anyways take cares and I’ll see you all in a week :).. or maybe sooner..

chotu-meyeh @ 9/17/2004 02:13:00 PM #|

.:Wednesday, September 15, 2004:.

A little clarification..

Ok I kinda of flipped out in the last post. In no way did I mean to say that I consider all bros to be wimps and jerks. I was simply on an emotional rant. Talking to that sis, hearing her story, and then some other factors caused me to go off like that.. but ya.. Alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal.. I didn’t mean it in the way I know see it could be taken..

chotu-meyeh @ 9/15/2004 11:38:00 PM #|

subhanAllah.. Allahul musta’an.. that’s all I gotta say..

I'm seriously dunnu what to say.. are all guys either wimps or jerks or both? Ya’ani subhanAllah I’ve seen enough people get hurt, and heard enough stories that its just depressing. And then today hearing yet another story and seeing how bad someone got hurt I was just like subhanAllah are all guys either jerks or wimps? (btw for those of you that know about the “soap opera” it has nothing to do with that, but that’s another story.. lets say there is a new episode in the show.. anyways back to topic). But like seriously though Allahul musta’an this has got to be one of the worst ending/saddening ones..

Me and this sis talked for a good two hours maybe, both of us just venting to the other. Since I could say we both can relate to a lot of the feelings that the other is feeling. When she first pmed me like I wanted to help her out, but instead I ended up telling her about some of my problems.. but alhamdulilah.. what are sisters for. But like I couldn’t believe what this brother put her through, not only her but himself also. subhanAllah. May Allah swt grant her better than what she lost. Aameen.

I just don’t get it, the brother could of avoided all of this. Like it was in his hands, if he would of taken an action his heart and hers would have been saved. But no he was to much of a wimp. Khair inshaAllah it was what was written for her.. but doesn’t change the fact of how hurt they both are now.. : (

ahh alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal.. maybe I'm just to emotional today.. anywaysss I'm so so so so so tired. Been workin all day couse my grandmas coming on Saturday :/. Make duaa things go good couse we don’t agree to well. Last time she was here for a weekend (eid al adha) and ya, it took every ounce of patience I had to not start an argument..

chotu-meyeh @ 9/15/2004 08:36:00 PM #|

da rappers

lol, I was looking through some old files and I found the rap that the sistas on mc made me write. I few months back, ermm like alota months back actually, there was a rap thread in mc sis section (ummq would remember this since SHE broke her promise and didnt rap.. anyways) so ya a few of the sisters cornered me into rappin.. and I found it today.. and this is it.. and dont laugh couse I already know it sucks.. lol.

Umm Qaylah:
*Cannot wait until maryam tries and embarrasses herself*I shouldnt be laughing because i cant rhyme anything except for game and same.Allahu 'Alam.

^^ that was before lol

I am a muslimah and PROUD,
I stand tall between this kufar crowd.
Allah stands by muh side,
he will always be yo guide!
Look up and trust yo God Allah!
No matter what u do, everyones goin to die,
Allah promised you that, and Allah don’t lie!
The hijab I wear represents Islam,
and it’s who I TRULY am.
I don’t know how these girls walk out the door of their house the way they do,
all they want is fo guys to touch ‘em and tell ‘em oh you cute too!
Muslims around the world need to UNITE,
so in front of these LOSER KUFAR we stand up right.
Ya allah we ask you to help us to do this!
Help us stand TOGETHER as
ONE umma FOREVA

andddddd this is yassi's rap.. she posted before me lol

k off the brain

fake lil kaferas
da dirt is wha ur kissin
cuz this islamic girl
is servin nothin but persision
up out da mountains and i tap da city
these crack smokin lil kelbas
always tryna jock me
they cant rock me
cant test me
tryna flow wit me but my words are too slippery smooth
throwin lyrics
vocally outstanding
u mad cuz u aint gettin da attention ur demanding
u HOES u aint takin it all
west coast to east coast
my muslims holdin it down
spreadin islam around

LOOLLL
yaaay

chotu-meyeh @ 9/15/2004 02:27:00 PM #|

.:Tuesday, September 14, 2004:.

…..

am bored.. no one to talk to. No one comes online much anymore. Nothing to really post, I mean there are stuff but it would just be random rants and I don’t want to rant. hmm now that UmmQ’s gone does anyone really read this? I think one other person does.. and zaineb sometimes.. ahh anyways… I miss everyone.. online and offline.. Allahu ‘aalam if and when tassnyms coming back.. Umm AbdulQudoos maybe another week or so.. Khala Ghada Allahu ‘aalam.. I just found out today that her and Yusif are heading to saudia for umrah tomorrow then going to madinah.. guess they might catch Jalal and Umm AbdulQudoos there after all.. ya I miss other people offline too.. as for online Allahu ‘aalam how it is.. couse its different in a sense there still there yet not.. alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal.. anyways its asir..

chotu-meyeh @ 9/14/2004 05:05:00 PM #|

My other blog..

I started another blog..lol..http://chotus-notes.blogspot.com/ . the reason I opened this one was so I could post up all the notes me and Umm Qaylah were supposed to exchange. So inshaAllah Imma post up all my notes in that blog. They aren’t that good but ya at least it will be easy for me and UmmQaylah to go back to them. And inshaAllah when she gets her internet she could post up hers as well.

chotu-meyeh @ 9/14/2004 04:59:00 PM #|

.:Monday, September 13, 2004:.

My orders..

I got both my orders today alhamdulilah. I really don’t understand how it took like almost 2 weeks for the ISB (islamicbookstore) order to come with UPS.. but only from Saturday till today for the ilmquest order to come in the postoffice.. lol but alhamdulilah I got them that’s what's important.. : ( dunnu what's gonna happen with me and ummqs study thing but ‘ala kullin inshaAllah Imma still read the books and stuff..

Right now I’m just about done with the 2nd Cd in the set.. my moms listening to it with me lol.. and she keeps yelling at my sister to shut up couse shes trying to concentrate.. my mom usually don’t listen to english, so I'm kinda surprised.. (only other english she will listen to really is Mohammad Al Shareef and Yassir Qadhi.. sometimes Anwar AlAwlaki)..

anyways.. the CD just finished and my mom said enough for one night.. so Imma listen to the other one in bed inshaAllah..

chotu-meyeh @ 9/13/2004 10:25:00 PM #|

Umm Qaylah : ( keep her in your du’aas

Alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal.. I’m sure most of you saw UmmQ’s last post on her blog. Around the same time she posted that she also came online and we were able to talk for a few minutes. I have been wanting to post since then but I just couldn’t, I was to down :(. SubhanAllah things are going so bad for her and it hurts so bad to see her in this state. May Allah swt facilitate all of her affairs for her.. and grant her the best of this dunya and the aakhira.. Aameen. Ever since I talked to her today I have been so depressed.. Its so much worse than she says on her blog, but khair inshaAllah..

It just hurts me so bad to see her in this kind of state, ya’ani shes like a sister to me. no not even a sister shes closer than a sister to me. I have told her things and been honest with her about stuff that I haven’t even told people I grew up with. Wallahi if I could I would take the pain she has and the stuff shes going through instead of her. She means so much to me and I just hope everything works out for her..

MashaAllah I look up to her and how strong she is in situations she faces. Even today I was flippin out and she was just like “its ok we just have to have sabr” and “all we can do is make duaa” and I was like.. subhanAllah you’re the one going through it and you’re the one helping me be patient. It made me feel so bad to complain about my problems, especially the ones with my family, when I looked at what she was going through.. I was like subhanAllah..

man its gonna suck so bad though.. couse UmmQaylah was the only person left that I had to talk to and complain to about everything.. the only person that I had to support me day in day out.. khair inshaAllah I guess in a way it’s also a test for me too.. loosing someone else that I care about a lot, and having to worry about them and stuff..

khair keep her in duaas inshaAllah..

chotu-meyeh @ 9/13/2004 10:04:00 PM #|

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What's so special about the heart of the valley?

Aight, I have had a few people ask me “well what's so special about Corvallis” so Imma try and explain. But explaining isn’t easy, its something you have to of felt to know what I mean. ‘ala kullin here is my attempt

I have been to a lot of different masajid and muslim communities in the US and I don’t think I have seen anything even close to Corvallis. The bond between the members of the community is stronger than blood relations. Many of us feel we could talk to an ‘amu (uncle) or khala (aunt) here than our own. Everyone watches out for everyone else and is there for them in a split second if they need them.

I think one of the most awesome things is that once you are part of it your always part of it. It doesn’t matter if you stayed a month, a year or a decade this is always and always will be your community. Khala Ghada and Yusif are in the UAE visiting her brother so they call Khala intisar (who lived here 7 years while her husband was doing his MS and PhD and has been gone for more than 2 years) in Oman and tell her, khala Intisar just gave birth a couple weeks ago but nevertheless her and her husband take their kids and go to the UAE just to spend a day with them and catch up on the news here!!

When someone has given birth or is sick or something everyone helps them out, cooks for them and watches their kids for them. When a Khala gives birth they cook for her for a month everyday. The community isn’t huge so everyone knows everyone, and watches out. You go to the store and some little kid will come running to you, or you’ll see a hijaabi/niqaabi. Ahh that’s another awesome thing, I’d say 90% of the Muslimahs here wear hijab, out of those 90%, 75% wear abayah, and out of that 75% more than 50% wear niqaab!!

Again like I said its really hard to explain, couse its just a feeling you know? a feeling that this is home. Well like the title said it IS the heart of the valley (btw that’s what Corvallis means lol.. couse it’s the heart of the Willamette valley). The masjid is our center of everything. It’s the hangout, the get together spot, its our life. We all connected to it alhamdulilah. One nice solid group, in every level. The khalas got an awesome group doing some awesome da’awah and helping us the youth grow up the right way. The ‘amus same thing. The bros got an awesome group, with a ton of awesome activities. And alhamdulilah us sisters same thing.

Anyways inshaAllah I wanna end off with a story, it barley shows how much we co operate with each other.. but it’s the first thing that came to mind..

After last Ramadan, ya’ani in shawaal, like right after eid al fitr.. there was an aqeeqah at the masjid. Us girls were waiting for the khalas to finish getting their food and then we would go. Most of us were fasting (make up days an 6 of shawaal) and were starting to get impatient. Anyways after a while the food ran out, and only two of us had gotten plates, also some of the khalaas hadn’t gotten either. So we were like its ok we’ll just share, so around 20 of us girls who hadn’t eaten in almost 24 hours started sharing two plates.

Me and my friend were like, mannn we gotta go get some food from the amus this isn’t working, couse ya’ani a lota people hadn’t eaten. So we go down and nock on the door between the men and women (not the main mens door but like one downstairs that leads to the women’s stairs.. anyways)… my other friends brother opens and we were like “you guys have extra food, a bunch of girls and khalas didn’t eat” and he was like “let me go check”. Comes back and says they only have what they are serving from. So we were like oh ok and were going to go up and he was like wait. So he goes and gets a plate from the ‘amus serving, and gets his plate and is like take these. We were like “no way keep ur plate” he was like “its ok Ill share” so we took them up and gave one of the plates to some khalas and took the other one to the girls..

After a while someone nocks downstairs so we send a little kid and he's like “its one of the guys and he has stuff” so me and Dania go down and its her brother (he was the one that opened for me and yassmeen) anyways.. him and some bros went to the store across the street and bought us a bunch of candy and junk food LOL… All of us were just like ‘mannnnnnn that was sweeeet” lol.. me made so much duaa for them..

Anyways that’s kinda like on a small scale how awesome it is here… couse ya, you cant describe it..

chotu-meyeh @ 9/13/2004 01:18:00 PM #|

.:Sunday, September 12, 2004:.

"friendship" by nymo

this is an email Tassnym sent out to a bunch of us last summer, June 24th 2003.. btw its not a forward she wrote it... oh ya she was supposed to be leaving that september so thats what the first poems about..

Friendship isn't always easily described. The Eskimos, they say, have a hundred different words for snow. Unfortunately, the English language isn't quite as innovative, though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning. Certainly, Love is one of those opportunities. And so, too, is Friendship.

Instead of different words, however, we're stuck with simple adjectives. Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend. But whether you use adjectives or different words, few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.

Friends are special people. We can't pick our family, and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate. Society and morales (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate. But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose. Our friends, in a very real sense, reflect the choices we make in life.

As It Comes To An End

As I sit here in class,
I observe my friends
And look forward to the year
Coming to an end.

It's gonna be sad
To say good- bye.
I'll miss everyone.
I know I will cry.

I remember the day
When I came back
To be with my friends
And get on the right track.

We had so many moments;
Some bad, most great.
I'll always remember the love
And erase the hate.

I don't wanna say good- bye
To all my friends.
I don't want this year
To come to an end.

Promise
As you sit in silence,
Wondering why
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
Until your tears run dry.

When you've been hurt,
And can't believe what they've done
If you need someone to talk to
I'll be the one.

If a close friend hurts you,
And you don't understand
Remember I'm here,
I'll lend a helping hand.

Burdens are lighter when carried by two,
And I just want you to know
I'm here for you.

TASSNYM LUV'S YALL

chotu-meyeh @ 9/12/2004 10:02:00 AM #|

Allahu ‘aalam..

subhanAllah.. Allahu ‘aalam in what kind of state I am in right now. I’m like confused, depressed, sad, angry, down, you name it. I have no idea what's happening or going to happen in my life. Where I’m going to be living/moving to, and what's worse is I have almost no say in anything. My parents are used to me agreeing with them and listening and pretty much just not giving them a hard time. I know what I want, ya’ani subhanAllah.. khair whatever…

Last night me my mom dad and sis had a long “talk”. Except it wasn’t much of a talk it was more of a listen. Couse that’s all I did listen. I never cried in front of my dad before, and rarely in front of my mom, but yesterday I was layin on the floor listening to them and like I couldn’t help it. I kept holding my eyes shut so I wouldn’t cry, but sometimes tears would escape and I’d just put my face down so no one could tell. There isn’t much I want or want to hold onto, and like everything that I do seems to be taken away. Alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal.

I know we are moving, and the choices all suck. I don’t want to move outa here, I love Corvallis the only time I wanna move outa here is when I get married, or to go to saudia or to go to some other awesome muslim community that I know people in. My dad said 90% we moving outa here.. maybe not for good but nevertheless moving outa here. ufff ya Allah.. and wallah all the places he said suck. He said Egypt, Hermiston, or possibly Richland WA. It got to a point that I was so annoyed (not only by this issue but other stuff that subhanAllah I guess Ill just shut up about) I was starting to have an attitude big time LOL. and trust me I only have an attitude with one person :P other than that I'm attitude free.. anyways my dad was going on and on about it and I like had enough so I was like “we might as well move to Canada” (being sarcastic) and he goes “well me u and karima no problem we got American passports its ur mom” (trying to be funny) and I was like look baba will u just stop? You know what I meant.. and he was kinda like quiet.. :(

Each of the three choices suck..
Egypt: first of all this is highly unlikely to happen.. but it’s a possibility. And I don’t want it. couse I heard enough about Egypt, to know I don’t wanna live there. maybe visit but not live.
Hermiston: if you wanna live in a city that’s full of racists kufaar with no muslims and horrible weather then hermistons the city for you. But I don’t so I guess it aint the city for me. with the closest masjid across the border in WA(I’ll get into that later) and Portland 3 or so hours away and Corvallis 5 or so.
Richland WA. : aight this is the lovely Richland across the border, maybe 45 mins away. Has a muslim community and Allahu ‘aalam about it. It *seems* (from what I read and the addresses I found) to have 2 masjids, yet there are only around 200-300 if you really wanna stretch it 400 muslims in all of the Tri-Cities (Richland, pasco and kennwick I think). So that tells you that they are very disunited. Also from the news paper articles I found on them they seem to be very nice kufaar loving modernists.

‘ala kulli haal there really isn’t anything like Corvallis, and like I said before only place I’d be willing to move to is saudia or when I get married wherever my husband wanna go or some really awesome muslim community. And like if this was the only issue going on maybe I could handle it better or try to live with it.. but its not.. and subhanAllah.. almost everyone that was always “there” for me, arnt.. each with a valid reason.. ahhh alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal..

Ramadan is coming up and Allahu ‘aalam where Imma be. My dad said if we move there then maybe once a month or so we can come down to Corvallis and maybe every week or two we could go to Portland. But wallah after living in a community like Corvallis that’s like nothing..

Right now I just wish I could get away from it all. From this and all the other messed up things going on. I was planning on fixing my computer and then just lockin myself in my room and studying until this came up. khair inshaAllah. I wish my khaloo would go to umrah, then I could go with him and forget about stuff. but ya my khaloo is going through just as much stuff if not more, I’m sure he himself wishes he could go, but I know he cant get the time off anymore.

Khair inshaAllah, I just really felt like ranting. Couse ya’ani with everything going on I kinda could cope then this, and it was like subhanAllah.. I couldn’t stand it. last night after isha (which we happened to pray at 12am since we were still “talking” till then) I just sat on my bed listening to a the CD I burned with all of ‘amu yassir and Tassnyms stuff. And like I was crying so hard and my mom walked in so I wiped them away and tried to hold back the rest, but couldn’t so I turned my face so she wouldn’t see.. and she asks why im not asleep and I said I'm going to in a bit.. and asked what I was listening to and I told her and she just looked at me in the dark and was like “are you ok”. I wanted to yell so bad and tell her how could I but instead I was like ya and she left. uffffff there I go complaining again..

Anyways please please please keep me in your duaas? Couse subhanAllah like I said in the beginning Allahu ‘aalam what's happening/going to happen in my life..

Anyways on a totally brighter note my books should be here tomorrow.. but Allahu ‘aalam bout the ilmquest order.. gotta check that..

lol on another brighter note I was talking with someone now about moving or whatever and Richland masjid and they go "do da'awah" and I said "ya if I move there we'll make a revolution in the masjid.. no more kufaar loving modernists :P" lol that would be fun huh?

chotu-meyeh @ 9/12/2004 09:53:00 AM #|

.:Saturday, September 11, 2004:.

guess what?

lol, my parents are talking again.. dunnu if its a good thing or not couse at least there was peace when they wernt talking couse they couldnt fight..

ahh anyways I'm bored.. its 11:15 am and no one else is up yet. My sis got up at 8:30 and I made her go back to bed, couse I didnt want anyone bugging me. But now I'm starting to get tired since I been up since fajr and its boring nothing to do.. no one to talk to... and I'm hungry..

ahhhh subhanAllah, I typed that up and right when I was going to click on publish my sis gets up and we get into one of the biggest fights we gotten into in a while. anyways shes a brat needs to learn adab.. I dunnu how Imma stand being in the same room as her for a week :/

chotu-meyeh @ 9/11/2004 11:13:00 AM #|

.:Friday, September 10, 2004:.

School, this weekend, emails, and a buncha other stuff..

aight, you guys know how it is with me on the weekends.. so anyways this post is for today and the weekend and till Allahu ‘aalam when..

“Class of ’05 inshaAllah.. 4 classes this semester, 4 next and I’m done bi ‘ithn Allah.”

Yesterday morning I come online and muna goes “DUANE CALLED ME” and I was like whaaaat he didn’t call me. and then I called him up and he picked up and said that they got the funding or whatever, and to check the site pick my classes and print the stuff I need to print so I did :D.

All of yesterday I was on the phone with Duane, and the ASOC people. I added up all my credits and stuff and looked at the classes and figured out what I need to do to finish. InshaAllah 4 online school classes this semester and 4 with ASOC next and Imma be done. Anyways this is totally off topic but you know what's messed up? it takes 45 credits to graduate in Oregon, and like 50 for advanced diploma, each class is 1 credit and some are 2. I was talking to UmmQ and she told me over there you graduate with 25 and advanced is 29 with each class usually worth 1 credit!!! And its not just over in VA, its everywhere. Oregon is messed up eh? No no not just Oregon, its Corvallis.. Portland aint even like that. lol.. you know it’s the 3rd highest educated city in the US or something?

Anywaysssssss, back to topic :). The four classes I am taking this semester are : Independent study English, Psychology, Life science : forestry of Oregon(something like that), Career planning. Now personally I find all of these classes pointless but whatever most of them are required. But the reason I find each pointless..

Life science : forestry of Oregon : come on, when am I going to use this?
Psychology: hmm I dunnu its useless, but then again I know almost nothing about it.. and yes this is a required class
Independent study English: my English is fine :D. and plus hows shiekspear going to help me :P. but ya I need the english credit and the teacher is awesome.
Career planning: another required class, now this one is the one I see very useless couse I know exactly what I want to do.. I don’t need no kaafir to help me decide. I wanna get married and be the best wife and mom ever, and study islam finish my hifdh and be a da’eeya. And if I gotta go to college after HS then I wanna do something that will help me in that cause, like teaching or something.. so its pointless..

School starts Monday, so alhamdulilah.. also starting Monday inshaAllah imma be doing everything else I planned or whatever.. starting up hifdh again, starting up the Islamic studies program with UmmQ inshaAllah.. and stuff.. the Islamic studies program looks good sah ya umm q? lol alhamdulilah we got everything planned and both of us got the books or at least ordered them.. am excited about that inshaAllah. UmmQ’s in NY this weekend though :/ and that sucks lol.

I just realized how much time I spend everyday on emails, its messed up lol. I spend at least an hour a day and I still don’t do all I want. Then again it doesn’t help when I have 6 email accounts.. then I got the two almaghrib_nw accounts I gotta check.. lool. But still I don’t even get that many emails, at least not ones that matter lol.. but still I gotta answer all of them..
I just went through my whole hotmail account couse I had to empty some of it for school emails, it was at 91% and after deleting a bunch its at 64%.. and I had to delete so much that I didn’t even feel like.. but oh well lol. so many memories though. Like all these nasheeds and stuff. lol and email from Tassnym saying “ONLY 4 MORE HOURS TILL THE WEDDING”. lol

ok ehmm since Tassnym don’t read this blog I can embarrass her on it check out this email
”psssh, gosh maryam just to let you know..i dont appreciate you saying brb and being gone for like hours...ok"!?!?!????!??!?!? so pshaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, talk to the hand because the face dont understand...how long has it been since we said that...btw i was just jking...dont worry about it...im just fadya just chillin, had nothing better to do, so i was like "hmm maybe ill send maryam and email" so i come on the computer i write you an email that says: "psssh, gosh maryam just to let you know..i dont appreciate you saying brb and being gone for like hours...ok"!?!?!????!??!?!? so pshaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, talk to the hand because the face dont understand...how long has it been since we said that...btw i was just jking...dont worry about it...im just fadya just chillin, had nothing better to do, so i was like "hmm maybe ill send maryam and email" so i come on the computer i write you an email that says" hheheheh but was jking, just playing around with you...sad......................well ill let you go...your prolly like what the hell has gotten into her?????????????anyway, email me back.....i havnt gotten an email for like....years.........so........yaaaa..............ssssaallaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmm”

lol that’s an exact copy paste.. miskeenah eh?

Anyways make duaa that this weekend goes good, couse ya’ani subhanAllah things really really suck now. I cant stand anyone in my family, I'm mad at all of them.. but I don’t show it, I try to treat them good. But its so hard, when like.. ahh whatever imma shut up :) no complaining lol..
Also make duaa for me couse my grandmas coming next weekend for a week and my dad has that whole week off too :/.. anyways I think im done rambling on..

chotu-meyeh @ 9/10/2004 10:58:00 PM #|

Answer to UmmQ's Q

A few weeks ago you posted a question in the sis section on mc about showing your hair to your husband to be.. anywayss someone asked almost same question on almaghrib forums and this is what shaykh Abu Ammar Yasir Qadhi said:

Salaam Alaikum
I apologize for the delay in responding...I was traveling back to Madinah and was (and still am) extremely busy.

It is absolutely permissible for a sister to beautify herself in front of a possible suitor when he comes to visit her in the presence of her wali.

The evidence for this is qiyas awla (a priori anology) - if he is allowed to look at her without her knowledge, and in fact might even see her in situations/ scenarios in which more than what is normally exposed will be shown, then of course he may look at her in a beautiful garment or with make up on. (NOTE: Please, brothers, don't abuse this privilige, and don't play games with the Sharee'ah: yes, a brother may spy on a sister if he is interested in marrying her, but as Ibn Qudamah and al-Mawardi and an-Nawawi and many scholars state, this is ONLY allowed if he is dead serious, and if he presumes that the sister's wali will allow him to marry her. Otherwise, if he knows that his proposal will be rejected or if he's not in a situaiton to propose, then such looking is merely zina of the eyes).

In fact, for her to look beautiful and (to put it blunty) be a fitnah for him is something which she should do if she's really interested in him. Now, the factor of 'looking her normal self so as not to deceive him' might be true, but at the same time she is allowed to make herself appealing to him. That is precisely what the Prophet (SAW) said when he told the man to go look at the woman, "...for it is liable to establish love between you."

As for the restrcition by some scholars that he can only look once, this has no basis. When the woman came and offered herself to the Prophet (SAW), the narrator says that the Prophet (SAW) looked at her '...up and down,' meaning that he took his time and decided whether he wanted to marry her or not.

As for the other restriction that some mad-habs place that he cannot look at her with any pleasure (shahwah), then frankly I just have to state that I don't understand how they can make such a statement. How is it possible for a man to look at a woman whom he's interested in marrying and NOT look at her in that way??? That is why Ibn Qudamah and al-Mawardi both refute that opinion and say that it is completely permissible to look at one's proposed wife with pleasure, and more than once, but only until he makes up his mind that he will propose, after which he should propose.

It is allowed for a man to see '...what normally appears' of a woman, such as her hair, arms, face, etc. If she's wearing a scarf, he may request her to take it off and see her hair. HOWEVER, it is her right to refuse (but that might not be a good idea if she wants him as a husband!!). In other words, this is not something that he can demand of her, but it is his right to know what her hair is like. Additionaly, he may look at her body beneath her clothes (sorry for being so explicit, but this is an issue which everyone should know about). Ibn Qudamah cleary states that he may see '...her places of flesh,' meaning from behind her clothes. Since physical beauty does play an important role in marriage, and each man has certain features which appeal to him in a woman, then he is allowed such leniencies which are otherwise not allowed.

Similarly, she may look at him with pleasure, and see what normally appears of his body.

Hope that answers the question.

BTW, this is my conclusion on this issue after studying the evidences and reading a number of fiqh books, including al-Mughni and al-Muqni and ash-Sharh al-Kabeer and al-Insaaf. However, just to make sure and add some weight, today I called up Sh. Ahmad (one of Sh. Shanqiti's main students), and he also confirmed these opinions.

And Allah knows best...

Wa Salaam

Yasir

chotu-meyeh @ 9/10/2004 03:33:00 PM #|

.:Thursday, September 09, 2004:.

Kawy and Hijaamah

Hijaamah and Kawy are two kinds of Tibb Nabawee.. but the prophet SAWS didn’t advise to do Kawy, said to use it as a last resort couse of the hardship you go through to do it.
Kawy is like ironing. The way they do it is they heat something up and put it on certain parts or something.

When khala Faykah got the extreme back pain from Sciatica she wanted to do Hijaamah, but it can only be done on the 17th 19th and 21st of the hijri month (if I remember right). And since that had passed she said she would do kawy. I talked to Tassnym today and she said that the doctor that did it for her mom brought like a metal rod and heated it and then put it on certain nerve spots on her feet. My first question was “you watched” and she said “ofcourse not”. She said that it hurt a lot couse her mom was like screaming. But after it she felt better, then the pain came back so they did it again today :(.

As for hijaamah, they like take out the bad blood and stuff. I heard its good for memory and things. hmmm would be kinda cool to do it lol. ya am weird.. but really other than for helping in illness, I guess if your healthy you can do it and it like helps ur health. I read some about it on islamqa and it sounds neat.. oh and I heard its not painful…

chotu-meyeh @ 9/09/2004 05:08:00 PM #|

Niqaabfied lol

Aight someone asked me to write up how I started niqaab/hijab and stuff for some project I guess, and since schools about to start up I thought it would be a good way to get back into stuff. so anyways since the only other thing I really have to post up is rants Imma post this.

It was the end of 2002/beginning of 2003, about a year after 9/11. I was sitting in the dars at the masjid and then the Adhan went off for salaah, everyone started to get up but I didn’t. Khala Dalia turned to me somewhat shocked “You balaghtee (reached age)”. I said “ya been months”. She turned to me, gave me that look I know all to well and said “I always thought khadija would be the first of the girls to start niqaab” and then she left to the musalah.

Her words hit me, they stung me, I knew what she meant. Khala Dalia was my teacher, the Imams wife, she taught me for all of 4th-6th grades and knew me inside out, she was the one that planted the love of the deen in me. She was the one that got me started on loving hijab, started on wearing jilbab, and I knew what her comment meant, it meant “I thought we had discussed this already. Hadn’t you decided to start niqaab when you reached age?”

I sat thinking about it throughout the salaah, its not that I didn’t want to I was just to scared to. My dad was the one who pushed me to start hijab when I was in 2nd grade (7-8) and we were the only muslims in a small town, but ever since then he would somewhat appose whenever my mom sister or I would want to do more. When I started wearing abayah he fought me for weeks till finally he gave up. Same thing happened when my mom decided to start niqaab, so I figured there would be no chance of him letting me especially since it was right after 9/11. By the time the salaah finished I had realized that I was to much of a wimp to face my dad.

A couple months passed but the thought never left my mind, every time I saw khala Dalia I would remember and would feel sad. I knew it was right, but I was still to scared to do it. Finally on the third day of Eid Al Adha that year, a few months after the incident with Khala Dalia, I was at Khala Ghadas house for a “get together” and I decided I wouldn’t leave the house again without putting on niqaab. The next morning, Friday, I asked my mom for the niqaab that Khala Ghada got her from Saudi, she caught on to my plans and asked me “are you planning on starting niqaab” and I said “yes”. She was happy but I told her that I was scared and didn’t know what baba would do. She told me that it didn’t matter, that what mattered was my intention and if I was doing it for the sake of Allah swt then inshaAllah even if he made me take it off I would still get the good deeds.

Later that day we were going to the masjid with my dad, I put on the niqaab and ran to the car before he could see me. When we got to the masjid I waited for him to get out of the car then I dashed to the masjid door. The first thing I did at the masjid was run up to Tassnym and told her. She wouldn’t believe it, until I showed her my niqaab. Next person that found out was Dania, and she took my niqaab and went around playing tricks on everyone.

I spent a week hiding from my dad that I had started niqaab, and was planning on hiding it until it was to late for him to do anything, but a week after I started we had to go up to Portland it I knew he would find out. That morning I got into the car and he came to my window and knocked, I got so scared, I thought the reason he did was to confront me. Instead he only wanted me to help him with something. When he saw me wearing niqaab though, he thought I was doing it as a joke and laughed about it. Later that day, halfway to Portland he asked me “you started niqaab”. I said “yes”. And he was just quiet. I knew he wasn’t going to do anything about it now, but later he wouldn’t let it go.

The next day my dad called me and gave me a long lecture, telling me that there is no need for me to start niqaab and that I could do it when I got married or at some later time. I told him that I didn’t want to and that I wanted to start now. We argued about it for a while and finally my mom stepped in and told my dad that he knew this was right and to let me be. My dad left me but he was not thrilled about it at all. He tried on other occasions to get me to take it off, but Alhamdulilah every time he would give up.

Its been close to two years since I started and alhamdulilah I love it. My dad is so much more acceptable to it now, he is the one that will get mad at me if I go out to the front yard without it or if my arms are showing and so on. When my grandmother came for a visit and tried to get me to take it off he was the one that stood up for me. So alhamdulilah :)

chotu-meyeh @ 9/09/2004 03:05:00 PM #|

.:Tuesday, September 07, 2004:.

Gone : (

4 people left this weekend, two for good, two for visits, alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal. ‘amu sammy and khala wafa took their kids and left to Jordan, and ‘Amu Husam and khala reham took their kids and left to saudia. Imma miss them but lol subhanAllah the people I am really going to miss are Umm AbdulQudoos and Khala Ghada.

Umm AbdulQudoos and Jalal left on Friday to saudia to visit their families. Their only gonna stay for like 2-3 weeks so Umm AbdulQudoos is like mad lol couse she only gonna be at her family for 4 days. And like jalal wants to go to Madinah to chill with Taariq for a whole week LOL. anyways imma miss her and my wittle habeebi Abaqoosi. Lol

Khala Ghada is taking Yusif and going off for like a month and a half. The plan at first was to go to saudia first do umrah then go to madinah so he could apply. Also it was going to be a little Corvallis get together, Taariq Jalal and Yusif. Then they would go to Syria or something. But I guess they had visa trouble so I *think* the plan now is to go to UAE for a week then to Syria and finally to saudia on the 27th. But Allahu ‘aalam, she only wants to go to Saudia so she told me before leaving (she left Sunday) that shes not sure yet totally, she doesn’t really like stayin in Syria for a long time.

Anyways me gonna miss them two so so so so so so so much :(. Tassnym was supposed to come back tomorrow but I talked to her today and she said she cant couse her moms VERY VERY SICK make duaa for her. She got “Sciatica” and Tassnym said she’s cryin from the pain. And I know khala faykah she don’t cry from nothing. Khair inshaAllah.. Corvallis is so empty this week.. but inshaAllah most people are starting to come back now and stuff…

chotu-meyeh @ 9/07/2004 04:59:00 PM #|

Corvallis online..

Dude Corvallis online is seriously getting on my nerves. I been trying to get a hold of my adviser dude for like two weeks. Last week I got in contact with someone else from the office and she told me “the program isn’t ready yet, call next week we might have some answers for you. Oh btw don’t call me call Duane”. So me and my friend and her dad been trying to get in contact with them since then. Finally my friends dad, ‘amu Adam, goes down to the district office and talks to him. and he like tells him that the district didn’t give him enough funding or something and that he's working on it.

So today I call up once and I get voicemail, so I was like I'm not leaving another message, so I called again a while ago and he answers and I was like OMG WHAAAT. So anyway he says “we might not have enough funding, I'm not sure yet. I need to contact some business thing and then I’ll call you back. Sorry” and I was like ermm okkkkkk. Oh BTW SCHOOL SHOULD START TOMORROW and non of us are registered yet. So anyways I was talking to my friend online so I told her he answered and shes like aight imma call him and bug him too. So she calls and he tells her “we might have some scholarships available but not for everyone, we’ll see”.

Right now I'm very annoyed with them. But khair whatever. All I gotta say is I better be one of those that get scholarships LOL. anyways if this whole thing ends up not working, imma have to do 8 classes with ASOC orr study and challenge some. Hmm I dunnu.. whatever, school sucks anyway. Oh anyone wanna do me a favor you can call up the dude (his number is on the site anyone so who cares if im posting it) and umm I dunnu just bug him LOL.. 541-757-3892 :D. juss kidding.. I needed to save the number lol it’s a new one.

chotu-meyeh @ 9/07/2004 04:12:00 PM #|

Nice three day weekend eh?

inshaAllah I hope all of you had a better three day weekend than me. Alhamdulilah I can say mine sucked. It was horrible but alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal. From Friday night till Sunday night nothing went right wallah. Like it was nothing but fights and stuff. My parents got into a huge fight on Friday night like as soon as my dad got back, so everything was on me. In order to keep peace in the house, I had to do everything just so no one would explode.

Khair inshaAllah.. that woulda been bad enough but added to that, I got a spider bite and I guess it was toxic or something couse part of Saturday all of Sunday and most of Monday I was SICK. Like I had a high fever, was so so so so cold, had a crazy headach and stuff, and ya ofcourse no one noticed but khair whatever. And couse of all the stress my backs hurting again, right now I have my hijab tied around my right shoulder, and cant move it couse ya it hurts. Alhamdulilah its getting better I think.

Most of the days I was working and stuff, cooking, cleaning, etc. but every like spare minute I had in the past three days Id just go to my room and lay down/sleep. And then during the night I wouldn’t really be able to fall asleep so I just like sit and think and stuff. Got some stuff ready for school, made a scrapbook, read some, and wrote poems again lol. so ya alhamdulilah.. make duaa for me and stuff..

chotu-meyeh @ 9/07/2004 04:03:00 PM #|

.:Saturday, September 04, 2004:.

Inna lillah wa inna illayyhi raji’oon

This morning me and my mom were in the kitchen getting breakfast ready, the phone rang and I picked it up. It was Khala Daleela and she was like “let me talk to mama” so I gave her the phone and I heard her say “Inna lillah wa inna illayyhi raji’oon” like three times then ask “in masr”. subhanAllah as soon as she said that I just turned to her and said “Khala So’ad” and she nodded. It really hit me..

Khala So’ad is khala Majida’s (Ali’s mom aka Danias mom in law) sister. She had cancer and came here from Egypt for treatment the past couple years. Everyone here really got to know her and love her, she was so sweet and patient mashaAllah. She had decided she wanted to go back to Egypt and had been there since almost the start of the summer. Khala Majida had gone there and when her condition got better came back, then a few weeks ago they called her and said her condition was worsening so she took Dania and went back. subhanAllah..

“death” has been a reality only a handful of times for me, and this is one of them. When I heard about her passing away, it was just like “oh ok Inna lillah wa inna illayyhi raji’oon”. Nope, it made me think. I don’t know why it was so different this time (not the only time something has shaken me like this) but I just kept thinking about things. But one thing it affirmed for me is ; life is short, use it wisely, use it good, and remember that daar Al khulood isn’t here, its in the aakhira so work for it. Whatever is in this dunya is going to go, sometime or another, no point in getting so attached to it. and that no matter how much some things change.. other things don’t.. (ummq I think ur the only person that’s going to understand the last one)

chotu-meyeh @ 9/04/2004 04:16:00 PM #|

.:Thursday, September 02, 2004:.

Alhamdulilah!!!!!!

Day before yesterday night.. (lol so Tuesday night) at like midnight, me and my mom are up and both kinda bored so she goes “why don’t we call Tassnym and khala” I was like “yesss lets call” so my mom told me to get a card and find the numbers and call, and I told her fine but if anyone answers that I would give her the phone. So anyway I tried calling one of the numbers (for the same house, her grandmas) and its giving me busy, half hour same thing, so I was like let me look for the other number I have. Found it and called it, one ring and someone picks up “’aloo” I was so sure it was khala but 1.I wasn’t sure and didn’t want to embarrass my self. 2.if it was her she sounded really asleep, and ummm I’m scared of Tassnym’s mom lol. so I said “Assalaamu ‘alaikum” and her voice totally changes and shes like “waaaaa ‘alaikummm assalaam” and I handed the phone to my mom. My mom goes “FAYKAAAAH” LOL. anyway, everyone was asleep we woke khala up (it was like 10:30 am their time) so they talked for a few mins and then my mom said “go back to sleep we’ll call in the morning”. And she hung up and used the card to call her family back home.

So I got up in the morning, and was like aiiiiiight when we calling.. but we had guests. So I waited and stuff then at like 12 my mom was like go call. So I was like OK. Called, some lady answered I go “Tassnym mowjooda” she goes “ey meen” and I said “Maryam” so she calls Tassnym, but I guess she didn’t hear her.. some little kid picks up the phone and starts talking. lol. Tassnyms aunt saw that so she took the phone, asked the same question and then goes “TASSNYM AMREEKA ‘ALA AL TILAPHONE” (Tassnym amreeka is on the phone). I started laughing.. anyway Tassnym comes and we used up the WHOLE CARD. LOL. my mom and khala huda who was over were like “WHAT THE.. we wanted to talk to khala” I was like “oh oops”

It was awesome, we caught up on everything. She made all her cousins and aunts talk to me. lol. and it was funny couse she would be like Maryam this is nouf and Id be like oh ok. Then Id say salaams and stuff and the girl would be like “so your Maryam” and Ill be like “so your nouf” lol. ya it was nice. Ohhhhh I almost forgot the best thing, they are coming back on the 9th inshaAllah for a couple months then leaving again!!!!!!!

Anyway that was really really really nice, and then later yesterday in the evening, I'm online as usual and someone pms me.. I was in the kitchen so I didn’t pay attention came back and I found it was Umm Sundus!!!!!!! I hadn’t talked to her in forever (her dania and nymo are my best friends.. well now UmmAbdulQudoos too.. anywayssss). We talked and talked for like two hours. She sent me pics of sundus who is already 1!!!!! mashaAllah.. she’s adorable. I couldn’t believe it was her though, couse she looks so different than her baby pics. (I think I showed at lest two of u them, InshaAllah I’ll show u guys these pics too.. juss remind me lol). but alhamdulilah it was really nice to get caught up and stuff. She doesn’t like it much there, said the people in Australia are nice, but to put it in her words “maa fee mithl Corvallis” (there is nothing like Corvallis)..

Anyways I’m supposed to be baby sitting Yusif today while meera and her husband go to Portland.. but meera hasn’t brought him over yettttt. lol mashaAllah that kid is so cute, inshaAllah I’ll try to take pics today. His grandma (meera’s mom). Ohh and btw just to clarify it so non of you get the same train of thoughts UmmQaylah got when I told her Yusif was late LOL. ITS NOT DANIAS BROTHER!!!!!! oh nevermind meera just got here.

chotu-meyeh @ 9/02/2004 11:04:00 AM #|

.:Wednesday, September 01, 2004:.

Do you yahoo?

couse I do.. lol I’m finally catchin up with everyone and am starting to use yahoo messenger :P. its actually kinda cool. lol msn has competition now. I like being able to change the other persons name lol. and the voice on it is a lot better than msn. But still msn is the original and da best.. but yahoo’s tight too.. anyway I think most of you have my yahoo email, and those that don’t remind me and I’ll give it to you inshaAllah.

chotu-meyeh @ 9/01/2004 07:43:00 PM #|