.:Monday, November 22, 2004:.
awww
awww
مريم says:
LOL
مريم says:
sure
Biro7! Bidam! Nafdeek ya shaheed! says:
HAHA
Biro7! Bidam! Nafdeek ya shaheed! says:
whats wrong with you?
Biro7! Bidam! Nafdeek ya shaheed! says:
you have every perfect aspect a girl can have in her
مريم says:
lol
Biro7! Bidam! Nafdeek ya shaheed! says:
you're soOoOo beautiful mashallah 3anik inside and OUT. you got a perfect personality, sweeter than you i have never mett
chotu-meyeh
@ 11/22/2004 01:29:00 PM
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Al weekend
Weekend kinda sucked, but it wasn’t to bad alhamdulilah. It was the first time that I hadn’t been in Corvallis for the weekend since we moved :(, wanted to get my dad to take us to Richland but then I was like nahh couse I wanna go to seattle in a couple weeks so I want him in a good mood and I don’t want him to say “we just went to so and so place last week”.
Spent most of Saturday helping my dad organize the garage and in the backyard, got into a pretty big fight with him in the morning though so we weren’t talking much the whole time which I didn’t mind.
Later, after dinner, I took the cell (lol the cell is still Corvallis number) and called khala Aisha couse I wanted a recipe from her. Alhamdulilah that was really really nice. It turns out I remembered the recipe more than her, so with both of us remembering parts of it we wrote it down so inshaAllah we don’t forget again. She told me about everything that had been going on the past week couse of eid and stuff.. then she goes “ha should we start looking for a house for you guys to move back” and I was like “not yet make duaa though”. we talked about like everything, I told her make duaa for my studies and she asked how much I have left I told her and she was like “you forgot your promise?” and I told her no that inshaAllah I still gonna finish before I graduate, and we talked some more and stuff and she said “khala ghada gonna be so happy when I tell her” and I told her not to, lets keep it our secret lol until I go down and then inshaAllah I’ll be almost done and I’ll tell her…. Anddd the bestest part was at the end she goes “Wallah ya Maryam ma ba t’arafi ad aysh ba hebik (wallahi Maryam you dunnu how much I love you” and I just kinda laughed and she goes “ba hebik ed al maya al fil bahir wa aktar (I love you more the all the water in the sea)” and I was like awwwwwwww ana kamaan ba hebik (Aww I love u too)”.. I had like the biggest smile on my face man.
Sunday was ok too, spent the morning trying to call everyone and anyone. From like 8-11 or something.. maybe 12 actually. EVERYONE in the us was either busy or not answering so I tried over seas and it was the same, then finally someone at tassnyms answered and hung up on me lol. I came online and asked stuck for her number and called her :D. but *cough* I couldn’t understand the accent man *cough* added to that the connection wasn’t very good so we hung up pretty fast.
Spent the rest of the day just helping mama and stuff so it was nice. I reallyyy reallyyy love my mom, like I really really love her. lol. me and her are on really good terms, better than we have maybe ever been. And ana luffs her. mmmm she started my ajroomiyyah lessons last night.. actuallyyyy I did. I went in the garage and looked through the boxes to find the book, then I was reading the intro and stuff and my mom was like “you wanna start?” and I said ya and she was like “are you sure your feeling ok? Couse I never seen you want to study qawaaid” and I said “I told you the fever was getting to me” and she laughed felt my head and said “ya I think so”. Its not that bad though, like its better than having to study all the Saudi arabi text books, so alhamdulilah.
anyways I have to finish my work.. maybe ill update later.. Allahu ‘aalam.
chotu-meyeh
@ 11/22/2004 10:43:00 AM
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.:Friday, November 19, 2004:.
hmm..
I finally realized how much work I have to catch up in if I want to stick with what I planned, and I realized how much of my time I was wasting in nothing productive. So I decided to start the” goals” now instead of the start of December :). InshaAllah if I can finish these things within the coming months I’ll feel really good. Anddd if I finish these then I’m sorta free after that, until I decide what to do next.
I spent a good party of today planning out everything I had, and wanted, to do and setting times etc. So inshaAllah starting tomorrow Imma start working on everything. Me and stuck made a deal that each of us is going to get on the case of the other for our hifdh. So inshaAllah I’ll stay on track with that :D. hmm what else, oh ya I'm gonna start up my arabi again inshaAllah, and then there is always regular school and stuff.. so ya inshaAllah I’m going to try to keep myself busy, might help..
chotu-meyeh
@ 11/19/2004 01:49:00 PM
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ahh..
I'm still feelin down today. Alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal. actually more than yesterday, I guess its about time for one of my emotional breakdowns lol. Its actually a little overdue innit :P. Everythings just so depressing, like even yesterday I was talking to stucko and telling her I was down and she was down and we both wanted to make the other feel better so we would just give advice and stuff and say stuff like we just gotta stay strong lol it was weird.
I made a decision yesterday kinda. Told stucko and zaineb about it, lol they both think its just a phase am going through couse I made it before and broke it. But I *think* it might be forreals this time? Allahu ‘aalam. I did what I wanted to do yesterday, it didn’t exactly make me feel better but alhamdulilah I think what happened was for the best.
Things at home suck too. I want to go back to Corvallis :(. Ya Allah, inshaAllah soon. Right now I guess I should just try to focus on my work and finish it, get on with things or whatever. Allahu ‘aalam…
chotu-meyeh
@ 11/19/2004 11:08:00 AM
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.:Thursday, November 18, 2004:.
Ummul Baraa’, aka Tassnym.
Since yesterday I haven’t stopped thinking about her. While cooking with my mom, I broke a promise to her mom lol. I had promised her that I wouldn’t make or eat biryani(or Pakistani/Indian food in general) until she came back.. long story but whatever. Even on the phone she would remind me of the promise, and I broke it yesterday. And later me and mama were in my room, me on the bed sleeping and she reading Quran, and she reads the ayah “wa mijazuhum min Tassnym” and I dunnu it made me miss her so much.. ya Allah..
Then this morning, I was going through files (yes, that’s all I do when I’m down.) and I saw me and nymo’s quote file.. there’s this one quote in it, it’s probably one of my favorites about friendship or whatever, “A friend is someone who can see the truth and pain in you even when you are fooling everyone else”. And wallahi that’s Tassnym. It doesn’t matter what was wrong or what was going on, I couldn’t hide it from her. Even if I didn’t tell her what it was, she would know that there was something.
I never used to tell her a lot, I would hide a lot from her, not for anything but because she wouldn’t understand certain things since she never experienced them, and she had her own things to worry about. But she could make me feel better no matter what. She always had this cheerfulness about her, and could change my mood so easily.
I don’t think there is a memory I have, in like my day to day life, in the past few years that doesn’t have something to do with her. She was always there, always putting me in line you know? She cared about all those small things that are considered stupid by everyone, but to her it was important. She always checked up on me, making sure I finished my hw and hifdh. Always paid a lot of attention to that, she would boycott me if I didn’t finish, especially the hifdh. She has a hand in why I was able to do what I did the past year, both in deen and in academics. Shes the one that pushed me to finish fast, more than my mom even, told me if I could then to go for it and she help me plan out my classes and all, so that now I’m on pace to finish inshaAllah if I can pass my classes.
We had so much in common, and so many differences. We agreed a lot, and we argued A LOT, but our differences never went down to our sisterhood. We could be in a huge argument but still get along. Only once did we get into a fight big enough for us to stop talking, and even then we would talk sometimes. I remember she was so mad she wouldn’t talk me for close to a month, but when we would be infront of people she would. Couse so many people tried to break up our friendship, and she didn’t want to give them the pleasure of seeing us mad at each other.
Shes the only person that’s ever seen my cry (other than mama). I remember our walks, just talking and enjoying ourselves. Talking about the future, what we expected to happen, and what could happen, and the surprises along the way. We used talk about her leaving a lot, we both knew it would be hard and I dunnu I think its harder, at least for me, than we expected. Shes like the type of friend that I don’t think I’ll have again. We shared our lives with each other, we lived them together.
We would spend almost every minute that we were at home together online, we’d do everything together. We’d plan things for the masjid, do homework, play jokes on people, ya Allah. lol I have these files, recordings, of both of us. Most are just like nasheeds and quran and stuff, but some of them are really amusing. We would argue in that way, like she would send me a recording of her argument and id send one back and so on. It was these small things that made a difference.
I’ve been like way to emotional since she left. I miss her so much right now :(. I haven’t talked to her in way to long, and even when I do talk to her its not the same couse its not like it used to be, it cant be. But at the same time I’m happy for her, I know shes wanted to go see her family and spend like eid and stuff with them for a long time, but I guess it’s a bittersweet happiness..
Ahhh, the signings I posted up before, its been almost 6 months now since we wrote these. I never did get to sign the actual scrapbook lol.. she left to fast.
Me:
You’re the type of friend that’s always there no matter what. Your there in good times and in bad. Your that one special friend that no matter what you feel connected to. You got one of the nicest personalities, always thoughtful always giving. You’ve been there thru all my “times”. Life is but a collection of memories and I have to say that a lot of mine include you, so that would mean a lot of my life includes you. Just because you might be far doesn’t mean you wont be close at heart. And I know for a fact I’m gonna look back at these days, and they gonna be some of the best memories I have. Your like a sister to me, I feel I could tell you anything and know it would be safe. I know im gonna miss you but inshaAllah one day we gonna meet up, at your wedding *cough* or mine :P anyway take care, keep in touch, and remember memories don’t live like people do.. wassalamu ‘alaikum..
Her:
maryam, you have been an awesome friend all thorughout. Weve been through our ups and downs, but i think weve learned alot from eachother. All those hours of chatting, and then having nothing to tlak about when we actually see eachother...ahh..anyway, no words can express our friendship, so i dunno what to say. People have come and gone, but amazingly weve stuck together, and i think weve inspired others to really appreciate their friends. Man this year was especially fun with you, with all the classes and stuff..it was great and all the pump for the parties nothin like it...you take care in life...be sure to invite me to your ewedding, and let me know if sofy comes into your life aight keep in touch! Much luv! salam
chotu-meyeh
@ 11/18/2004 10:59:00 AM
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From last weekend..
Like I said, I’ve been thinking a lot about Corvallis, so ya these are some things that made me smile when I was down there last weekend.
* Osama banging on my door in the morning saying “MAYAAAM MAYAAAM”
*Osama asking me “Inti Abu meen (whos dad are you)” when he really meant “inti abuki meen (whos ur dad)”
*Watching khala dalia eating cotton candy!!
*Having to chase Omar (imams son, whos like my own little brother) around the masjid so he would talk to me.
*Abdur-Rahman randomly saying “LAA ANA LISSA MAT ZAWAJAT” (No I still didn’t get married) LOL ya Allah.. everyone was like “OH REALLY?? YOUR THREE AND YOUR STILL NOT MARRIED”
*Listening to how khala Ghada and Yusif me the shaykh that did “Mukhtasir Tafseer ibn katheer”, Mohammad Ali Al Sabooni and his wife on the plane, and how he edited and is getting Khalas book printed for her!
*Watching Abdul Qudoos rock Abdullah in his chair couse he was crying, that has got to be the most adorable seen ever.
*Getting covered in Cotton candy, and seeing all my friends covered in it, makes you feel like a kid again.
*My friend meera (Umm Yusif) trying to guess who I like by doing this for an hour “YUSIF you want more juice habeebi?” “ I think I might name my second son HASSAN”
*Mohammad awad leading salaat al maghrib and messing up in surat al Baqaarah. Now normally that wouldn’t be funny, but he's my brother like seriously we grew up together, and me and his sis were outside couse we couldn’t pray and she was clowning on him the whole time. I was like miskeen mohammad when he gets home his whole family gonna rip him apart lol. she told to stop stickin up for him.
*What khala Dalia told me right before we left, if there was no memory but that from last weekend it would be enough for me. It made me smile all the way home. Alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal..
chotu-meyeh
@ 11/18/2004 10:02:00 AM
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:(
I’m in such a :( mood. You know when everything makes you sad and everything bothers you. I miss Corvallis so much :(. Like all I do is think about what's going on over there. Theres so much going on this week couse of eid and stuff and I dunnu.. Then there is a bunch of other things that are getting to me so ya..
I’m thinking about doing something, not sure how smart I am if I do. I think I’m just trying to use it as an escape for everything, like to “make me feel better”. It’s not something bad, its just that I don’t think it’ll be fair to the other person :(. Allahu ‘aalam.. its not the first time I’ve wanted to go back to this its just that every other time something else would happen and I’d forget about it, or make myself forget. Last night I kinda decided to do it today, but khair we’ll see…
Alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal.
chotu-meyeh
@ 11/18/2004 09:50:00 AM
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.:Wednesday, November 17, 2004:.
Ramadans over and..
Ramadan's over, the shayateen are out, and I need you guys (if anyone still reads this) to make duaa for me and my family..
chotu-meyeh
@ 11/17/2004 03:55:00 PM
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.:Monday, November 15, 2004:.
My trip
I just got back from one of the awesomest trips I ever went on, ok maybe not as awesome as the trips from a few summers ago but this one was right up there. So many memories, so many good times, it was just great. If I was to write about it all, it would turn out longer than the research paper I should be writing, so here is just like a glimpse at it, mostly the events and what I did not what actually took place if that makes sense.
Day 1 :-
My sister came and woke my up around 10:30 telling me to hurry up and get ready couse baba wanted to leave. So I got up, put the rest of my stuff in my bag and went out of my room to see what was up. My mom was really really sick so I had to get everything else ready and then we left.
We had some “extra” time on our hands so my dad decided to take us around town to show us since me and my mom hadn’t gone out once really since we moved. Its about the size of Corvallis, but its sparcily populated, probably not even half of Corvallis population. One thing I noticed about this place is how many CHURCHES!! There is practicly a church every corner, no no there are churches like next door to each other. “church of christ” “seventh day advatist church” “Hermiston Christian assembly”.. etc.. its crazy wallahi..
Anywaaaays, we *somehow* made it to Portland in less than three hours. I was tired that day so I wasn’t watching my dads speed like I usually do :P. but I can assure you it was not close to the speed limit. The plan was to stop in Masjid assebir and pray dhur asir there then go to Corvallis, but when we got to Portland there was a BIG accident that clogged up all the traffic, both going and coming. So my dad took some back highway to salem and from there down to Corvallis. In total the trip took 3 hours 40 mins !!!! don’t ask how.. with all the delays in Portland and stuff, even I don’t know how lol.
We got to Corvallis just before maghrib, my dad stopped at the old place (he still has the key) and they went and prayed duhr asir while I “broke” my fast on candy in the car. Then my dad went to the masjid and we went to Aboodi’s house. Alhamdulilah that was nice, seeing him and stuff since last week when we went down we didn’t get to see him. Just like talked and had dinner and played with him a bit.
After that we went to khala Umm Ali’s (danias inlaws) couse we were staying there. When they built their house they built for Ali almost an apartment on the last floor but he’s not staying in it so they told us to come stay there. It was pretty nice staying with them, even if at first it was kind of weird. The first night I almost wished we could of stayed anywhere else, because I felt like to much of a “guest” at their place. Like I’m not the kind of person that likes to just sit down and be served you know? but that’s how it was there at first, and I knew anywhere else it wouldn’t have been.. Al muhim, mashaAllah tabaarak Allah these people are some of the most generous people ever, may Allah swt bless aameen.
One thing I really enjoyed about staying with them, was how “busy” the house was. Other than Amu and Khala, there are 3 of their kids, one of their “adopted” (not for reals, but there is a story for each of them) daughters, their married daughters husband and their son Osama (who is such a cutey btw). Other than the people living there everyday, Dania and Ali are over all the time, Khala’s cousins kids, their other “adopted” daughter and her husband and son as well, and a bunch of other people. So mashaAllah you never really feel bored couse of there is always something going on.
Anyways, when we got there we were very tired and all but they wanted us to sit with them for a bit so we chilled out for a while. Khala was cooking for the mu’takifeen so we kinda helped her and then amu and my dad went down to the masjid and took them the food.
Day 2 :-
Its 5 something in the morning, I’m dead tired and I cant fast so I aint planning to get up for sahoor, but khala sends her cousins daughter to “wake up” my mom and sis (my dad was at al masjid for qiyaam) neither one get ups so I have to get up. it was so so so unfair lol. I ended up going upstairs and sitting with everyone while they ate.
I had started to complain about the stairs in our house, until I went there. In order to get from where we were staying to the girls rooms you have to run up 4 flights of stairs. So after doing that for four days, I learned to say alhamdulilah and not complain.
The next thing I remember is Noora telling me to get up and go to yassmeans room. Noora woke me up one to many times that day :). Al-Muhim, I went up and another one of my friends was there too. So we chilled out a bit, started planning when we were going to clean and decorate the masjid and stuff. The my parents wanted to go to juma’ and they wanted me to go as well so I left and went to the masjid.
I hadn’t gone to juma’ in at least a year, if not more (well except one time and that time really doesn’t count). So it was the first time for me to hear Amu ‘awad give a khutbah in a while. I forgot how good he was mashaAllah. I wasn’t praying, so I have some notes, but its not relevant anymore really couse it was about ending off Ramadan and what have we gained from it. But mashaAllah he's tight.. na’am. I still remember when he was teaching us (me, my sis, his kids) deen and stuff, and how he would get mad at us. He was, and kinda still is, like a dad to me. There are actually a few amu’s like that..lol.. Amu abu bahaa’, Amu Mustafa (aboodi’s dad), Amu Shaykh Hassan al zabadi, and a few others.
After juma’ my mom said she wanted to stay at the masjid till iftar, but me and my sis went over to Umm Abdul Qudoos’s. There is/was this project that a few of us were working on and we needed to finish some of it. Before Khala Faykah left, she gave Khala Sumayyah a lot of money and told her to buy fabric and sew 100+ salaah things. Then she told me and Umm Abdul Qudoos what to do with them when she gives them to us. So Umm Abdul Qudoos put together a papers in arabi about “the obligations of a womens covering in salaah”, and had me translate it when I was down last week. Khala Umm Mish’al bought candy and gift bags and brought them to Umm Qoossy’s house. And Jalal printed out the papers for us, with the arabi on one side and the english on the other. So we had to fold all of the salaah things, put them in the bags, put candy and the papers with them. When we finished the room we were in was pretty much lined full with bags. We were like, poor Jalal he's gonna have to take all of these to the masjid for us lol.
Alhamdulilah had a really nice time there though, just chilling, talking, playing with qoossy, and having fun. lol it was funny when Umm Qoossy opened the candy bags I grabbed one and started to open and eat it, she goes “INTI SAYMA” and then she was like “tsk tsk ma ‘alaiki” and she went and got me cake :D. Couse the other day she took my recipe from me and made it and she wanted me to try it. I seriously ate so much that day, when I first got up there was food downstairs from sahoor so I ate alllll of it. lol 3 samboosa, 2 pieces of cake, and some tamr and juice. Then at ummqoosy I had candy and more candy and cake and more candy.
Halfway through finishing folding and stuff Jalal came so we shut the door on us and he was out on the computer, then when we finished we traded and he got locked in the room while we used the computer. I kept trying to get ahold of my dad couse he was supposed to come pick me and my sis up to take us to the masjid, but his phone was off!! Finally he picks up and he's like “I’m in Albany with adam, we’re gonna be late for iftar”. So we went with another amu who was taking ummqoosy wa abuqoossy.
The masjid was AWESOME na’am. It was an aqeeqah and iftar so there were alott of people. And just going around saying salaams was great. Even though we were there just last week, and saw a lot of people, it felt as if I hadn’t seen anyone in ages. I tried to call UmmQ from some 10 year olds cell but it wouldn’t go through :(. I tried calling her last weekend as well but she was in NY, and I tried calling her last night but she was asleep lol. anyways, I mainly chilled with Umm Yufis (I have pics of him now!! Aww my habeebi.. I needa find them in my bag and scan them though), then we *tried* to start cleaning the masjid because the next day could have been eid, but its almost impossible to do that with all the kids lol.
Everyone was waiting for Amu Abu Qais to announce when eid was, and he has this thing where he likes to keep everyone waiting. He told them to pray ‘isha first so they did, then he takes the mic and he goes “The moon has *pause* not been sited in the US or Canada so eid is Sunday inshaAllah”. The masjid split into two, some saying awwwwwww and some saying yaaaaaa. I was of those saying awwww but alhamdulilah.
Khala Umm Mish’al wanted us to spend the night at her place, so my mom was like how about the girls go with you and me and zawji stay at Umm Ali’s, so she was like aight that’s good. So I was like how about not? To start with I wasn’t feeling good at all, and I really didn’t feel like spending the night and day (since my mom promised her she would spend the day with her) with all the kids, and I wanted to chill with the girls at khala Umm Ali’s. so after more negotiations my sis went and I stayed with my mom.
When we got back “home” there were two other girls spending the night with yassmeana so we all went up to her room and chilled.. then Nada came as well and sat with us. My mom called me and was like “I want you in your bed couse I know your tired” (I wasn’t feeling good at all that night) and I said ok but in a bit, she said how long I said half hour or so. lol so at midnight, nada wants something from her car and me and another girl are going down to get it. I walk out of the room with the keys in my hand and get to the stairs and my moms coming up the stairs I was like ohhhh noo. Ya Allah first thing she asks is “why do you have the keys” and I said couse nada wants something from the car” and she goes “your not going anywhere?” and I said “no” and then shes like yellah get downstairs. So I go with her and shes like “DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH NOISE YOU GUYS ARE MAKING. ‘ayb ‘alaikum khala and amu are sleeping and your making all of this noise etc etc”. Later she told me she wasn’t mad couse I was up, she was mad couse we were being noisy. But wallahi we wernt making noise, we were sitting and talking.
Day 3:-
It was Saturday, so everyone slept in. I was up around 10 but I didn’t actually get up until 12 when everyone else started to wake up. Then mama and baba prayed duhr and we left to khala Umm Mish’als. It was pretty fun there, even if it was noisy. Ofcourse the first thing I do is head to Amu’s office upstairs and the internet :P. ok maybe not right away, I stayed down for a good hour or so first.
Other than coming online and taking care of the kids, we cooked couse khala was cooking for the men at another amus house. So we made fatayir and samboosa and kufta and rice and salad and sweets and a buncha other stuff. Around iftar time, Umm Abdul Qudoos and khala huda came. Ya Allah, salaah time was a nightmare for me!!! I had to take care of a 6 month old(sarah), a 7 month old(Abdullah), a 9(or is he 10 qoossy.) month old, a 22 month old(rudayna) and a 3 year old(nouf). Maghrib wasn’t bad, couse sarah was sleeping, rudayna wasn’t fussing, just Abdullah was crying, and nouf was crying, so I got nouf to shut up, and I was holding Abdullah and then qoossy got jelous so he climbed into my lap and it was ok alhamdulilah. Now ‘isha that’s another story. Sarah was crying and when she cries she doesn’t stop, when she cried Abdullah started to cry and then nouf hit rudayna so she cried then nouf cries couse she doesn’t want me to get mad at her. I put Abdullah in his chair, and he was fine, was carrying sarah and got nouf to stop and rudayna alhamdulilah. Then nouf gets herself wet somehow so I had to go upstairs put sarah on the bed and change nouf. lol habeebi AbduQudoos is the cutest, I put him next to Abdullahs chair and he kept rocking him so he wouldn’t cry. When they finished salaah khala Umm Mish’al was like, “all that was left was for us to start whining with them” I was like ya whatever.
After that we went back to umm ali’s, and my dad got lost AGAIN on the way. lol. they kinda live out of town, up on a hill and my dad keeps asking Hussam (Abu Osama) for directions again and again its funny. but alhamdulilah finally he got it right :P. When we got there me my mom and sis got into a fight that ruined the night kinda. And we just went to sleep.
Day 4:-
This day was the awesomest maybe.
My dad said he wanted to leave at 8 so I said I’m not getting up till 7:45 and I didn’t. Everyone had the lights on in the room and stuff since like fajr so it wasn’t like I was actually asleep but I was being lazy. Only problem was that when I got up I realized I could pray and that meant I had to shower and that meant more time. I was so so so happy though I was like yaaaaaaa I can pray eid.. my mom was like chill out and hurry up. Alhamdulilah I was still the first one in the car, after my dad :P.
We got to the masjid pretty early, so I just went around saying salaams to everyone and getting into another fight with my sister. After that I was in a bad mood so I just sat next to my mom with qoossy waiting for amu ‘awad.
MashaAllah the khutba was AWESOME. It was probably the longest khutbat eid that I ever heard though, I was sitting next to his daughter and she was like he hasn’t sleep for two days. Everyone was talking about it though, like even when we got in the care 10 hours later my mom was like “khutbat ‘amu ‘awad kaanit row3a sah” and I was like “ya it was”.
As soon as the khutbah was over khala Umm Mish’al told me to pass out the salaah things with her, couse that’s what khala Faykah said to do. She said to pass it out right after salaah couse some people leave right away and she wanted everyone to get one. The Masjid was packed though alhamdulilah.
After that khala Dalia was like come here, so I went with her and shes like “you know how to work this thing” (balloons) and I said ya so she said ok do it. So me, Dania, and Yassmeana stood in the kids room makings balloons for all the kids. Wallahi we stood there for at least an hour, lol and ofcourse we went crazy with the helium :P .
Most of us didn’t get anything to eat so we just ate candy, like so so so much candy. Khala dalia was like “I gave mohammad $20 and told him buy candy for the masjid, he told me “mama do you know how much candy that is” and I told him you talking back to me? and he said no. so he went and got me enough candy for 50 eids” lol.
Thennn we passed out all these little gifts for the kids, mashaAllah its so so so nice to see their face light up and they smile then run to their mom and are like “mama mama look what I got”, even though it’s the most simple thing. At around 12 most people left, and then a bunch of us went caravan style to peoples houses for about an hour. When we got back at around 1:30 or so only Khadija (imams daughter) my sister and my sisters best friend and her little sis were at the masjid. As soon as I walk in khadija goes “DID YOU GET ME WATER”. And I was like omg no, I’ll go to freddies (its across the street) now I have money. And she was like nooo its ok. But I was hungry too so me and mama went and got some food and water and came back. And all Khadija and the kids were like THANK YOU SO MUCH. I was like no problem lol.
The kids had a party after asir and my dad at first said we could stay for that, then before asir he comes to the stairs and is like yellah we leaving after asir.. I was like nooo please noo.. so after salaah we convinced him. So we stayed for that, and left after maghrib.
I know it was a kids party, but just helping out in it us girls had so much fun LOL. The funnest and funniest thing has got to be making cotton candy. Everytime it was my turn I’d end up covered with it and then I’d go clean up and come back its my turn again so we kept doing that the whole night. I ate so much cotton candy, so much popcorn, so much candy that I felt sick wallah.. but it was fun still couse we were all together and all chillin helping out and stuff.
I called omar (the imams son) and I was like take this down to my dad, and I gave him a big cotton candy thing, and he's like make one for Mohammad too so I did and he takes them down and he comes back up and he's like “so and so and so want one” and I was like okkk and me and khadija had to make like 649845 for the men lol. The party was also kinda like Sunday school graduation or something so they all got gifts and stuff.
omg khala Dalia and khala Umm Mish’al kept trying to get me to sing I was like nooooo wayyyyyyyy.. they were like come on its eid, I was like nope never. First off I suck, second this is one thing I don’t do without Tassnym. So they were like whatever.
I missed Tassnym so much though :(. Like seriously I missed her. Even though it was nice, and I had a good time it wasn’t the same, without her or khala. But alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal.. I have to call her though.. Zaineb told me she came online a few days ago :(. But I wasn’t on.
Before maghrib my dad comes to the stairs and he was like “RIGHT AFTER SALAAH COME DOWN” I was like chillll out aightttt no problem.. lol. then after salaah he comes again and he gives us the keys and is like NOW. My sister was so scared she was like “he's so mad” I was like nah he's faking. And it was true, we went and stayed in the car forever until he came and he was in a good mood.
Got home around 10:30 or so.. so it wasn’t to late and I just went to bed right away.. and im so so so tired now. Alhamdulilah it was a pretty good eid, not the best but it was nice. Todays kinda boring though lol. but khair inshaAllah..
chotu-meyeh
@ 11/15/2004 10:51:00 AM
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.:Wednesday, November 10, 2004:.
Over already :(
I cant believe Ramadan is over already. SubhanAllah. It seems like it was just yesterday when they announced that it was Ramadan, now theres only a few days left! This Ramadan wasn’t one of my best but alhamdulilah. I just didn’t feel it pass by, I guess with moving and everything it went by even quicker than usual.
I cant pray now :(. Wallahi its so flippin messed up. lol. like every Ramadan(and its only in Ramadan!) its like this, I cant fast for a third of the month :(. This year its going to be 8 or 9 days, depending when eid is, and no eid salaah :(. InshaAllah laa’. lol it was kinda funny though couse I got up with my mom like I usually do, and after that I ate sahoor and everything and then I went to lay down for a bit before fajr and then after I got up and got ready for fajr and everything that’s when I couldn’t so I was like, Alhamdulilah at least I didn’t get it earlier. Anyways.. I’m mad :(.
inshaAllah I’m going to Corvallis tomorrow, I got so much to get ready but I don’t feel like it. lol we’re invited out to 3 peoples houses tomorrow and my dads invited at the masjid. Ya Allah.. I miss Tassnym so much :(. Like I always miss her but when I go to Corvallis and around eid and stuff then its even more. Ahh khair inshaAllah, shes in a better place than me that’s forsure. Looks out of her window and sees the ka’abah..
I’ve done NONE of my school work all Ramadan, like I’m so behind its not even funny :(. I always do this first semester, then I have to try and catch up in winter break. The thing is I cant risk failing or getting a bad grade (not like last semester *cough* ummq *cough*) in any of my classes this semester if I plan on graduating like I want to. Anyways I’ve set two goals and I’m giving myself 5 months (starting December, hey I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t put things off...innit ) to complete them inshaAllah. So inshaAllah as soon as Ramadans over no more playing around...
This blog has seriously gotten so useless, like at first there was actually a reason for it but now its just randomness. And ever since I started writing the “letters” lol, I haven’t really been posting, couse I write enough in those and I write a lot like better/deeper. A lot of things that I would want to say and stuff I don’t on the blog couse I know anyone can read it, but when I write offline then I know no one will read it so I write what I want. So ya, maybe I should use this to post up all zainebs pomes :P (ya ya I didn’t forget I’ll change the poem to the right one in a min..) and no I’m not posting mine lol. or maybe I’ll just keep it for the randomness still. Al muhim I’m probably not going to post again till after eid.
chotu-meyeh
@ 11/10/2004 02:55:00 PM
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.:Monday, November 08, 2004:.
My weekend.
Alhamdulilah I got the chance to go to Corvallis this weekend, was pretty nice. Saturday was awesome, Sunday was ok I guess.. kinda sucked but alhamdulilah.
Saturday was really really nice. I went to bed around 8 in the morning, got woken up around 10. We left around 10:30 and mashaAllah the weather was very nice. The drive wasn’t bad either couse it was like so beautiful. I kept taking pictures with my dads phone, and then I’d have to delete some and take more couse of how pretty it was.
Got to Corvallis around 3 and went to the masjid, prayed duhr and asir then me my mom and sis went to Umm Abdul Qudoos’s house. Stayed with her and saw myyyy wittle habeebi broke our fast at her house then we walked to the OSU community center couse there was iftar for women there. First person that we see when we walk in is Dania and shes like “:O you’re here!!” and we were like ya.. then she goes “you come to see mama” and my mom thinks shes joking and is like “ya next week” and then like I walk in and Khala Ghada is standing talking to someone and I was like omgggg.. so I go up to her say salaams and stuff and shes like “I MISS YOU” and I was like “I miss you tooo” aww man ya so anyways..
After iftar and stuff, us, khala Umm Mish’al and the kids went to Umm AbdulQudoos’s and chilled out there till after tarweeh.. then khala Umm Mish’al left. Khala Umm Mish’al was like begging us to go spend the night at her house lol she was like im gonna kick out amu.. but at the end we just spent the night at Umm AbdulQudoos’s couse her husband was doing ‘itikaf anyways. Had a really nice night alhamdulilah, slept around 2 got up around 3 lol. Cooked sahoor together and stuff.
A little after fajr everyone else went to sleep and I was online and I guess that’s when the day started to suck. I made a mistake, acted dumb and got myself depressed lol.. so ya after that I decided to go sleep.. it was kinda funny couse my mom had been telling me to sleep and I was like no and then I went into the room and she was like hmm why you sleeping now.. ahh probably shoulda listened to my mom from the start innit.. anyways I slept/was lazy till around 10 when the phone rang and rang and no one wanted to pick up.. I knew it was my dad but I wasn’t going to get up lol.. finally he hung up, and I woke up my sis told her to call him. Then I wouldn’t get up still until Umm qoossy brought him and started makin him bug me and stuff..
On a totally side note. MashaAllah that kid is adorable. He’s my little baby lol.. like he listens to me and comes to me don’t cry with me.. starting to say my name.. aww I love him so much.. he took his first step Saturday night!! mashaAllahhh.. yes anyways..
So ya we left her place at around 12 or whatever. Went prayed duhr asir and my dad had a few errands to run so we did those then left. The weather sucked Sunday, wasn’t even half as nice as the day before so the drive wasn’t that nice.. The whole time we were in the car I was in the worst mood ever :( . Like everything annoyed me and I just wanted to yell at everyone :/. lol everytime my dad wouldn’t be in the car I’d take it out on my sister. Ahh anyways so we drove back got here sometime after maghrib.
After we got home, my dad was the one in a bad mood, except he didn’t control it lol he just went off on anyone for anything. Yelling at EVERYTHING ya Allah.. Then he saw my computer on and told me to turn it off not to turn it on :(. I ended up turning it on after fajr :/
Ahh khair inshaAllah.. over all it was a pretty good weekend.
chotu-meyeh
@ 11/08/2004 09:33:00 AM
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.:Thursday, November 04, 2004:.
Fajr
Zainebs poem:
Fajir
It is time to awaken
It is time to arise,
It is time to get up,
To open my eyes
Coming near is the morning light,
I can’t seem to move.
It seems ever so bright
Shaytan is playing with my mind telling me to remain asleep,
He tells me, “You may stay in bed, it’s very warm, you may, you may”
“No, I must conquer this sleepy feeling.” To him I say
I must open my eyes to pray.
To think that I have to even try and prevail over this sleep is such a shame,
If I don’t wake up in time,
I’m the one to blame
I deafeted the shaytan!
I’m up, I’m Up!
As I make wudoo’ for fajir prayer,
I wash away the sleepiness,
The tiredness,
The drowsiness,
The exhaustion away from my eyes
I raise my arms to Allah the most merciful
I recite surat Al-Fatiha to thank him for all that he has provided for me.
For the feet that I walk on,
For the eyesight that allows me to see,
For the hardships he has put me through.
For the person he has permitted me to be
I kneel down with full strength in prostration to Allah,
Asking him to plant the love of this religion in my heart,
For the sister and brotherhood of all the muslimeen to never grow apart.
I ask him to help this umma rise,
To help us become one,
So that he would shade us from the blazing hot sun.
I make salam at the end of my prayer,
To the right, then to the left.
I sit in remembrance to him.
Allah (swt) gave us our soul,
He gave us situations to over come,
He asks that we stand up for our rights and play the real Muslim role.
chotu-meyeh
@ 11/04/2004 04:19:00 PM
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Moved..
hmm so its been like a week since I update this, actually surprised that Im getting the chance to update so soon. Anyways I guess alot has happened in the past while. If I was updating day by day each day I'd have more than enough to talk about, but since this is going to cover the whole past while I'll just say everything pretty briefly.
Alhamdulillah the move went pretty good. I'm dead tired though. My rooms unpacked, well all that I'm planning to unpack of it is unpacked. lol I only unpacked like two boxes and my cloths. As for the rest of the house then thats almost done as well so alhamdulillah. The house here is pretty tight.. so is the neighborhood.. lol most of hermiston is like ghetto lol so this is one of the better areas I guess. The neighbors seem nice enough as well, a few came over and asked us if we needed help and told us to call on them if we need anything etc.
I got internet today wich was a surprise to me :D. at first my dad told me I couldnt put my computer up (I guess he suspected I was getting internet on it lol) but then he needed a program off of it so he said to hook it up. Also the other computer downstairs is hooked up and it has a wireless card in it so its getting signal from the neighbors and my dad doesnt know, well he knows we can get signal but my brother told him it was to weak to use but today I got it to work alhamdulillah. So ya, today I was able to come online answer emails and stuff and inshaAllah from now on at night I can come online and even in the day inshaAllah.
As for how I'm doing, then I guess ok alhamdulillah. From monday night till midday today I was so so so depressed like I was just sitting in my room and u know feeling so down but alhamdulillah I'm not anymore :D. I got to call up a few people from back home in corvallis and talked to some of the girls online so that was nice alhamdullilah. inshaAllah we'r going down this sat/sun so I'm happy about that. and then eid inshaAllah.
hmm what else.. lol ever since last sunday everyday I write at least one letter to a few people.. lol like I'll sit down and write a letter that I know they will never read.. I dunnu why. But its kinda fun. From the people that I've written to are, person x, ummq, zaineb, and stuck lol. some of them I write to everday others I just write sometimes.. anyways ana tired :(. bess I want to stay online. I want to call UmmQaylah kamaan :(. me misses her lol. I havnt talked to her in like what? two? three weeks? inshaAllah tomorrow or something. she dont even have my number anymore :/ but then again almost no one does couse I GAVE IT OUT WRONG lool.. i switched one of the numbers around and I passed it out to like everyone. today I was talking to zaineb and she goes "I was going to call u today" (like she actually was, she said she'd call me on monday before I moved lol.. ) and I was like good u didnt couse u have the wrong number.. ahh anyways if I actualy have something usefull to say I'll post again.
chotu-meyeh
@ 11/04/2004 01:27:00 AM
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