subhanAllah.. I'm really really not having a good day lol alhamdulilah.. like starting from last night all these problems and stuff started, so I got up this morning not really wanting to do anything. I couldn’t go to Quran class either so that really sucked.. I just got up and went online, I have some homework to do, and I figured maybe when I go online It’ll take my mind off of things. Instead it just made things worse. I don’t think my eyes have been dry since I came on. I had a pm from UmmQaylah that brought tears to my eyes and I just got really down reading it couse I HATE seeing her hurting, like I would rather I'm the one hurting instead of her. Then this girl that I don’t even know personally, zainebs cousin, but I love her.. and like care for her.. she comes on.. and shes like throwing away her life.. and it hurts to see her doing that, couse she has one of the purest most loving hearts, she just doesn’t have anyone to guide her. So we were talking to her and stuff and I started crying again.. (wallahi I never was like this, I never used to cry subhanAllah) and all the time I'm on the computer I'm going through file after file of memories.. just reading and stuff.. lol I shoulda been doing my hw but I couldn’t decide if I should do my report on the US or Canada..
anyway what I really wanted to talk about was the feeling of missing someone, since its something I have been feeling a lot lately.. and a feeling that I know some of you (aka umm qaylah, yassi, and zaineb) can relate too.. the actual feeling of missing someone is nice.. its like comforting, I dunnu.. it like prove to yourself that they mean something to you.. since sometimes the you don’t notice the value of something till you have lost it. The feeling of being missed is also one of the awesomest feelings. To know that someone cares about you, and thinks about you. I don’t think there is anything as sweet as someone telling you “I miss you” other than maybe someone telling you that they love you..
now while these two feelings are great, there is a third one.. and its not so great. It’s the feeling that someone doesn’t miss you, when you expect them to, and when you yourself miss them more than anything. You will be dying to talk to them, cant wait and then when u do your disappointed. This person means the world to you, but you get this feeling that they don’t care about you. I know UmmQaylah knows exactly what I'm talking about.. it breaks apart your heart.. but it doesn’t matter.. couse u cant change how people feel sah? Khair I just wanna say that I miss and love you ya Umm Qaylah even though we kinda talked.. and I really miss you yassi man where u been.. havnt talked in forever it seems ana luff u lots... there are others that I miss, but I wont mention them…
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As-Salaamu 'Alaikum Wa Rahmatullaahi Wa barakatuh,
SubHan-Allaah. Umm Qaylah is and always will be here for you. You bring tears to my eyes with such posts. Ya ukhtee, if you ever feel that you miss someone and need anything at all, I am always here for you. Even though I know I may not bring that person, I could try and provide some sort of support for you.
I hate to see you feeling this way. I love it when you happy and laughing because it brightens my day knowing your enjoying yours. Please ukhtee, dont let that one person get to you because I know exactly what could happen to you if you do. Take my word for it, Insha-allaah.
Ya Umm Suhayb, I love you for the sake of Allaah and will be there for you at anytime and cost if you ever need me. You know how to reach me, Insha-Allaah.
~TrueKnowledge
SubHan-Allaah. Umm Qaylah is and always will be here for you. You bring tears to my eyes with such posts. Ya ukhtee, if you ever feel that you miss someone and need anything at all, I am always here for you. Even though I know I may not bring that person, I could try and provide some sort of support for you.
I hate to see you feeling this way. I love it when you happy and laughing because it brightens my day knowing your enjoying yours. Please ukhtee, dont let that one person get to you because I know exactly what could happen to you if you do. Take my word for it, Insha-allaah.
Ya Umm Suhayb, I love you for the sake of Allaah and will be there for you at anytime and cost if you ever need me. You know how to reach me, Insha-Allaah.
~TrueKnowledge
Assalamu ‘alaikum wa rahamatullahi wa barakaatuhu,
Wallahi ukhti, you are one of the few people that have and do stand by me at all times whether they be good or bad. You know I wasn’t referring to you in this post. Alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal.. wallahi one of the few things that have recently been brightening my days is being able to talk to you. No matter what the subject is, even if its something that would usually sadden me, but just talking to u makes me happy.. reminds me of how things used to be.. when we were so carefree and happy with nothing to worry about.. without sadness in our hearts.. alhamdulilah.. inshaAllah one day those days will return even better than they were..
I hate the way I am now ya ukhti, wallahi I used to smile without stopping.. now its rare for me to smile. Khair I know that stressing isn’t going to get me anywhere. But inshaAllah I have taken a few decisions and stuff.. which I will talk about more in my next post.. I don’t want to let all these problems (and especially that problem) to ruin the good in my life. Khair inshaAllah..
Ya Ukhti Al ghaleeya wal habeeba.. may he for whos sake u love me love you.. wallahi I love you more than I can express. I love you for the sake of Allah swt and beyond. May Allah swt bless you and grant you that which is best for you in this dunya wal Akhira.. and may Allah swt facilitate all your affairs.. and grant you that which your heart desires. Aameen.
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Wallahi ukhti, you are one of the few people that have and do stand by me at all times whether they be good or bad. You know I wasn’t referring to you in this post. Alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal.. wallahi one of the few things that have recently been brightening my days is being able to talk to you. No matter what the subject is, even if its something that would usually sadden me, but just talking to u makes me happy.. reminds me of how things used to be.. when we were so carefree and happy with nothing to worry about.. without sadness in our hearts.. alhamdulilah.. inshaAllah one day those days will return even better than they were..
I hate the way I am now ya ukhti, wallahi I used to smile without stopping.. now its rare for me to smile. Khair I know that stressing isn’t going to get me anywhere. But inshaAllah I have taken a few decisions and stuff.. which I will talk about more in my next post.. I don’t want to let all these problems (and especially that problem) to ruin the good in my life. Khair inshaAllah..
Ya Ukhti Al ghaleeya wal habeeba.. may he for whos sake u love me love you.. wallahi I love you more than I can express. I love you for the sake of Allah swt and beyond. May Allah swt bless you and grant you that which is best for you in this dunya wal Akhira.. and may Allah swt facilitate all your affairs.. and grant you that which your heart desires. Aameen.
