.:Friday, September 24, 2004:.
Alhamdulilah 'ala kulli haal.. me need ur duaas..
I wrote this earlier today... i guess its a temporary goodbye.. at least from blogging.. ahh Allahu 'aalam..
As salaamu 'alaikum wa rahamatullahi wa barakaatuhu,
I just wanted to write and let all of you that read this or that I talk to that I most likely wont be coming online to much for the next while. Actually Allahu 'aalam when the next time I will be coming on is unless I can somehow get this computer(mine) to work right. now I am on it with the mouse not workin lol and im doing tab tab to get to everything. I have dial up on it for now but I cant use it except late at night (12-6am my time). InshaAllah I will try to check and respond to my emails as best as I can, and if I cant keep up I'll call Zaineb up and have her read to me and respond for me my emails. For all of you that have my number go ahead and call as long as its not a weekend. And for those of you that I have ur numbers I'll give you call inshaAllah.. And if I dont have your number and you would like me to call email it to me inshaAllah.. (yo stucko want me to run up your peak minutes :P). hmm oh ya Zaineb u read this give me a call (jumaah our time tomorrow, or anytime after 5 on sunday.. lol I know u got free mins on the weekends so ya.. and anytime other than that except weekends) or email me your number, its on my other computer and I cant get to it, either that or I'll call up Dania and get it from her inshaAllah.. btw I'm not exactly in trouble, its a long complicated story that involves alot of my problems, and I dont really feel like posting it up on the blog.. but ya if and when I talk to any of you I guess I'll tell you..
khair inshaAllah.. I ask all of you to keep me in your duaas. If you have ever cared about me or if I ever meant anything to any of you show it by makin sincere duaa for me right now. Alhamdulilah 'ala kulli haal.. things are just going I guess.. not good but alhamdulilah.. There is nothing I want more than to speak to some of you right now.. I seriously just wish I could.. even if its the last time.. :(. ya Allah.. alhamdulilah 'ala kulli haal..
I want all of you (the 6 that I gave this link to..) that I really really appreciate all you've done for me. All the times you have been there for me, and all the happieness and memories you entered into my heart. Allahu 'aalam how much I will get to talk to you from now on, I might never.. but I want you all to know that I will never forget you and that you made a difference in my life.
wallah right now as I'm writting this I cant help but cry. No matter how hard I am trying to keep them in I cant.. Ya Allah.. I'm trying to stay strong through all thats happening but I cant. I'm getting weaker. :(. I dont know what to do anymore, or what choices to make. Everything I ever wanted to hold onto is slipping through my fingers. I'm writting this and I dont even know if I will ever get the chance to post it. khair inshaAllah please please keep me in your duaas.. and inshaAllah I'll try to stay in thouch, phone, email or whatever..
wallahi I love you all for the sake of Allah swt.. anyways.. take care..was salaamu 'alaikum wa rahamatullahi wa barakaatuhu..
chotu-meyeh
@ 9/24/2004 01:59:00 AM
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