Whenever I try to fall asleep I think about everything and anything, so this morning I was thinking about this.. Is it really true that a moment of truth is better than a lifetime of silence? I've had a few people tell me this, and I just dunnu if I totally agree with it. Actually from all I have seen I think either way its just as big a risk. You confess to someone something and you get rejected and it'll hurt forever, but on the other hand if you dont and each of you move your own ways you probably will be just as hurt if not more.
I dunnu, I've seen and been a part of to many stories. Some had a good ending while others didnt and I have come to the conclusion that no matter how much I'd want to go for the moment of truth I really dont think I could have it in me to go for it. Ya I'm a wimp.. but I would rather live with hope than get a clear cut rejection :/. hmm maybe I'm being stupid? (lol good thing ummq cant read my blog anymore or she would state it as a fact :P). Allahu 'aalam but I think for me it'll be the pain of silence..and ya im probably stupid..
Speaking of me being stupid, another thing that has been on my mind for a while and that is somewhat close to this subject, the whole Yusif thing. :/. lol this is another thing that UmmQaylah wants to eat me alive for. I dunnu Im starting to really really think Im just being really dumb about this. ya'ani in the apperant I dont have a reason to turn him down, but to me I think I got enough reasons. Its just that no one would ever understand.. I know if I say no without a "reason" EVERYONE is going to think Ive gone crazy. And I seriously dunnu what to do (wow look at me worryin even before the fact.. or is it?). Im starting to think maybe I should just say yes or whatever. Allahu 'aalam I might regret it if I dont.
lol anyways I'm really really really really sleepy right now so maybe I'm not thinking right. I needa go help my mom and I want to do the update for my other blog and I want to sleep.. dunnu what order I'll do it in..
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man this post was real confusing, you need to be clear....
he asked for you!???!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!
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he asked for you!???!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!
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: 12/05/2004 7:52 PM
: 12/05/2004 7:52 PM
