.:Tuesday, October 26, 2004:.
Friday: Person x.
posted it twice, ended up deleting both lol.. sooo am posting again..
I’m not exactly totally sure about posting this but Allahu ‘aalam. Anyways there’s been I guess you could say an interesting "issue" between me and this one person. And I haven’t really been able to talk about it with anyone or anything so its been kinda hard. But khair inshaAllah..
In short, this person has reason to believe that I broke their trust, and I know I haven’t. This and other factors have caused us to not talk anymore. Anyways the other day something happened with it, lol nothing big or anything actually probably one of the smallest things that has happened in this issue..
I had promised the person that I wouldn’t email or contact them again but I had a couple files that I knew they would like so I emailed it to them and I really didn’t think I would get a response. I thought at best they would reply to my email and just say Jazakillah khair or something. anyways I was busy and stuff and then when I got home I went online and they were on, so I was like hmm should I check my yahoo and see if they sent anything, but then I was like ahh later u know. so I was online and the LAST thing on my mind was that they would message me.
And ya they did. and like it was just weird. When I saw the screen blinking and it was their name I was just like whattt the.. The first thing that came to my mind was the were going to tell me not to email again or something lol. but ya they said salaams and said jazaks for the files and said they were nice. And it was really weird like it was the first time in almost a month for them to talk to me "nicely" lol.. like not nicely but without interrogating me. and I really didn’t know what to say or how to respond :/. I think couse of that I sounded kinda like annoyed/unpleasant. Ahh khair inshaAllah.
After that they told me a couple other things and that was it. I had to get off and go cook and I kept debating if I should say take care and salaams or if I should just go off. I even typed it out but I couldn’t get myself to click enter. I didn’t want to annoy them or get them mad or anything :/. lol subhanAllah. I didn’t know how to react at all. Like we weren’t talking like old times, but at the same time it wasn’t like how it was the past month, and I didn’t know what the limits were I guess. Khair inshaAllah. I just want them happy, don’t really care about anything else.
It was also weird couse that’s most likely the last convo we gonna have. I’m moving in a week and wont have internet for Allahu ‘aalam how long after I move, and the chances of us talking again before that is so very slim. I re read the convo so many times before I went off lol. The whole time I just had that screen open. I wanted to save it so bad, but ya I’ve changed my policy about saving, I promised myself not to save convos again. ahh subhanAllah.. it was interesting to say the least.. but now I kinda wish I did say take care and salaams.. I’d rather that be last thing I told them, instead of "ya I will inshaAllah..".. :/
chotu-meyeh
@ 10/26/2004 01:51:00 PM
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