lol to be honest lately I've been frustrated about a lot of things, but right now I'm just so flippin annoyed with my sister. I've been trying to be nicer and sweeter and more patient with her the past while couse of stuff but its just so hard. You do something nice for her and she bugs you extra in return. I think one of the things we fight over the most is the computer. This is the only thing I really care about anymore, couse its my connection to the outside, my "escape" from everything that’s going on, through it I get to talk to some of the few people that make me happy.. and she knows that.. yet she is constantly bugging me for it, and I do give it to her.. but its like why do you want it? To talk to dura? And like she talks to her on the phone just about EVERY night for at least an hour, what more can you two talk about lol. Or to go on neopets, or whatever that stupid thing they do is.. lol I threatened her to block access to that site from the computer if she doesn’t stop couse its so pathetic.. lol… and ya'ani even though I'm online I'm usually not wasting my time, I'm either doing school work or house work.. she just sits there..
so ya.. just to be nice I give it to her, but she doesn’t want it when I give it to her.. nooo she wants it when I want it. For example, yesterday at around 12 the person I was talking to had to go for a bit so I figured I'd go offline since I didn’t have anything else to do. I called her and told her zaineb was online if she wanted to use the computer and she was all happy and was like yes. So I go off, go get my dads lunch started and then notice there's still at least half an hour till he gets home, and since I'm really tired I figured I'd go rest for a bit. So I went and laid on my moms bed since her room was nice and sunny.
Not even five minutes had passed and she was in the room jumping on the bed bugging me. I begged her to leave me alone, so she left for a minute only to show up again except this time she had brought the cat. She continues harassing me and asking me questions and even though I feel like telling her off really harshly I'm like no I cant gotta be nice lol.. so I beg and beg "please, 'ashan khatree… wallahi im so tired let me rest babas gonna be home soon.. mishanullah listen to me for once.. subhanAllah whats up with you cant u leave me alone?" and she starts going "your so mean you never sit with me" and I'm like "I spend the whole evening with you what are you on" and shes like "whatever" and then she gets into the bed with me and I was like omg your not planning on leaving me alone are you? and I got up lol. Now the point of this story is that when baba left I really really really wanted to use the computer, since I had kinda promised I'd be back on at 2.. but no she wants it. She was like "duras always on at this time please?" and threw a fit so I was like FINE, and then I kinda got told off for being late when I finally did show up at 2:30.. lol.. and like the same thing happens everyday, its like whats the point of trying to be nice when she's still being bratty with me :(. And yes the littlest things get on my nerves these days.. I cant help it..
Because of our acceptance of Torah, Jews have a special status in the eyes of God, but we lose that special status when we abandon Torah. Furthermore, the blessings that we received from God by accepting the Torah come with a high price: Jews have a greater responsibility than non-Jews. While non-Jews are only obligated to obey the seven commandments given to Noah, Jews are responsible for fulfilling the 613 mitzvot in the Torah, thus God will punish Jews for doing things that would not be a sin for non-Jews.
Maryam, would you like for a rabbi in your area to come and give the Word to you and your family?
: 2/11/2005 7:07 PM
