.:Saturday, March 05, 2005:.
In my own lil world..
Lately I've been almost in my own world. Just deep in thought. Its weird, I guess some things are bothering me… alots going on.. and its caused me to "think" all the time :S. I'm not sure if that makes sense, lol.. but UmmQaylah knows what I'm talking about. I can barely sleep at night couse I'm thinking to much, and in the day time I can't do anything productive because I'm constantly day dreaming. How many times have I gone to my room with the intention of reading, memorizing, or studying and then ending up doing nothing but lay down on my bed and think…
Last night me and UmmQaylah had one of those heart to heart talks. Alhamdulilah it was nice, I don’t think we'd been so open with each other in a while. And even though I didn’t talk to her about everything, just knowing that someone understands me and understands how I'm feeling made me feel good. It also got me thinking about that one quote "The grass may seem greener on the other side, but the fruits needed most are the ones that grow in our own orchards" how often do we think we are the only ones with problems or going through hard times.. and how often do we forget to look at the good that comes from these trials…
I'm confused about a lot of things, and worried about a lot of things. I know for a fact I'm the type of person that worries about things to much, sometimes its good sometimes it not.. It's just about confirmed that we'll be moving (my whole family..) within a month or so.. I'm not sure how much I'll be able to post, or be on this week.. so just keep me in your duaa's.. even though he's not supposed to I'm pretty sure my dads gonna have us head to Corvallis this weekend.. so I guess I wont be on much this weekend either.. khair inshaAllah.. I dunnu.. things are just weird.. but alhamdulilah..
My parents are so ready to leave this country lol.. both of them.. they cant stand it anymore.. I'm like great.. watch it never happen though.. but they're thinking about it.. dunnu what it'd be like, and dunnu how much I'd like it.. so ya that’s another thing to think about.
chotu-meyeh
@ 3/05/2005 04:30:00 PM
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