.:Monday, May 23, 2005:.
Dreams..
I had a couple really weird dreams last night, and no matter what I cant get them off of my mind. Especially the second. Its not that they were bad, but I cant say they were good. ya’ani the apparent is good, but to me its weird. I don’t think I can explain it. I know that its “just a dream” and that in Islam dreams are neither believed or disbelieved.. but its just that I’ve had a lot of dreams that ended up coming true before.. and these ones are almost like a continuation of ones I’ve been having. Almost like, “you didn’t pay attention to the ones before so lets make it a little more real” if that makes any sense.
Each one is about a different situation, and I’ve had dreams on them before. I’ve always just thought it was because I think about the situations to much but this time it was so real.. and different. I told Umm Qaylah the dreams, she said that they seemed good especially the second one that’s bothering me. The first ones pretty normal, close to ones I had before.. and that situation I think I’ve dealt with already? It’s the second one that I’ve been thinking about non stop..
Today seems to be like the day of bad days. No matter who I talk to they seem to be having a pretty bad day.. and I cant say mine was perfect either. I’ve had a few of those moments where you feel like just letting tears out for no reason.. khala Aisha called during one of those times and I was home alone.. When I saw the name on the caller ID didn’t wanna pick up, but I knew it would make her more worried if I didn’t.. As soon as she picked up she asks whats wrong with me.. and then she said something that almost hurt for some reason “habeebti I want you to be happy again, I want to see you smile. Every time I talk to you you’re down.. tell me whats wrong”. I was like “khaltu wallahi im fine!!” lol she didn’t buy it.
lol subhanAllah, I’m honestly not that bad though! Most days I am happy and good, she just seems to see me at the wrong times. But ya, its been a kinda rough day alhamdulilah. I think I need another counseling session with UmmQ lol.. that seems to be how all or convos go.. me counseling her with her issues and her counseling me with mine.. alhamdulilah ‘ala kulli haal.
The one thing that really made my day today was getting a call from AbdulQudoos lol.. His mom called and when she heard me answer the phone she put him on right away. Have I mentioned how much I love that kid? Ya Allah.. hes adorable habeebi.. he can barely talk so I couldn’t really understand what he was saying but it made me smile. lol I know I’ve said it before and ya’ll think I’m crazy (except maybe ummq) but I want a baby :S lol… anyways I’ll end the post before my sanity gets questioned any more than it already is…
I miss my yasi :(.
chotu-meyeh
@ 5/23/2005 11:06:00 PM
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