.:Thursday, May 26, 2005:.
marriage :/
lol yes this subject again!! Allahu ‘aalam.. I think me and Umm Qaylah (or should I say “Umm Qaylah and I” per our discussion today :P) talk about this waaaaaaaay to much.. today we talked about a little bit different aspect of it.. how worried and scared we actually are about it..
I think I usually give off the vibe that I’m coo with it, and that I think I could handle it now.. but the truth is I don’t think so.. In all honesty Im an immature soon to be 16 (ya ya I know its months :P) year old that got emotional problems and according to some people mental problems as well lol.. And I really don’t think I could run a house.
Yes I could cook meals, clean the house, and do things like that, but I don’t think that’s all that is too it.. theres more, a lot more, and that’s the stuff that seems to pass by a girls mind constantly.. I thought I was alone in my insanity of thoughts until somehow (no need to mention how :P) Umm Qaylah and I ended up talking about these fears and worries today. In a way it was a relief lol, I guess each of us had a few answers that the other wanted to know and it helped.
Its really interesting how small of issues we seem to come up with and think about. I cant remember what it was but we both were worrying about this really not important issue and we ended up laughing at our selves for even thinking about it now.. something like cooking a certain meal to often lol.. and then there were the more apparent ones, like inlaws, and not meeting your husbands expectations..
This conversations, and some other things, have really gotten me to re think the whole “I wanna get married now” that I’ve been on and off for the past while. I just don’t know if I’m ready…and the last thing I’d want is to rush something and then for it not to work out..
Khair, I had wanted to write more.. and I had thought of certain things I wanted to put up.. but its getting late.. almost 2 am.. and I kinda want to stay up from fajr tomorrow lol.. so I better go get a couple hours of sleep..
chotu-meyeh
@ 5/26/2005 01:54:00 AM
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