I've had a pretty crazy day. Right now aint the best time of the day for me I guess. A bit down, alhamdulilah 'ala kulli haal. Its amazing how seeing someone you care about down, can totally change how you yourself are feeling. For me, I think its harder to see certain people going through hardships or being depressed than if I was going through them. It breaks my heart to not be able to do anything for them but try to console them with words, and sometimes I can't even do that because I don't know what to say.

 

My dads not home, hasnt been since fajr and wont be home till after midnight. Its also amazing how he trusts me with things, and tells me things he doesn't even tell my mom. I'm not sure if that's totally right, but thats how it is with him. Sometimes its hard to keep all the secrets (not just my dads, but in general) I'm intrusted with. I just don't understand what people see in me that makes them tell me things. I love my dad. Even with everything, I can't help but love him.. maybe more than anyone else in this house loves him.

 

I just got home half hour or ago, maybe 45mins.. something like that. I don't like being out so much. Today was to much out for me. I had to go with mom to Albany to take my dad to the train station at fajr.. when we got back I layed down and fell asleep even though I hadn't planned on falling asleep. When I did get up it was around 10, and I was in a bad mood because I had wanted to stay from fajr to do an exam before the dars. I didn't want to go to the dars, but I had to.

 

Umm Yusif is leaving in a couple days, moving to Portland. Alhamdulilah 'ala kulli haal. They had a goodbye thing for her today at the dars, so I had to go. Was there from like 12-2ish. Came home for about ten minutes and then left again. Had to go grocery shopping, and then mom had some things she needed to take care of downtown. I hate downtown, but I had a mocha ice cream coffee thing that was good :D alhamdulilah. I've been eating waaaay to much junk lately.. but ya thats off topic. So we finally got home around 5:30 and I've been doing nothing since. I came straight to the computer, havent even taken off my abayah..

 

I need to do hw, I dont FEEL up to doing it. man I needdd to stop this. couse I need to finish. I want to finish. but I'm just I dunnu, not motivated anymore. I need to stop getting into these mood swings so easy. Like I'll be fine for a little then get all emotionally messed up for a little.. khair.. I better go start or something.

 

Oh ya, the OSU (oregon state uni) beavers of Corvallis got eliminated from the college world series :(.. all my teams suck lol..  ahh at least osu teams are better than UofO (uni of oregon, aka eugene)...