.:Tuesday, July 12, 2005:.
bored!
I am bored! I have nothing to do and no one to talk to!! I already did any housework that needs to be done, and my dads probably going out with my brother so I didnt bother cooking. And ya, I have nothing to do.. probably should go read but I'm lazy.. ahh inshaAllah I will after this post.
So lets see, I pretty much spent my day being bored and getting ignored by everyone! I did go to the masjid alhamdulilah and that was nice. Although I've become somewhat anti-social lately I must not let myself not go to the masjid, alhamdulilah it brightens my day. As much as I would like to think that I would rather stay home and sleep or go online, in reality it is best for me to go.
Abaa 'AbdilQudoos is leaving this weekend. My mom has agreed to let me go, but I have not brought it up with my dad as of yet. Myself, I am not sure if I want to spend the WHOLE time with Umm 'AbdilQudoos but inshaAllah I do plan on spending at least part of the time with her. Alhamdulilah we get along well and we enjoy each others company.
With more and more talk and action towards us moving I have been thinking about this alot, and have been trying to weigh the pros and cons of each possible place. Every one of them seems to have similar pros and cons. The cons mainly being; away from the place and way of life I know, being lonly and the such. The main pros I see are; getting out of this country, being around muslims, having a greater opertuinty to further study in the direction I enjoy and long for the most etc.
As of now nothing seems final, and there seems to be to many ways that my parents are looking into. Even with this, it is hard not to think about it since it would be a great change in my life were it to take place. Allahu 'aalam where the khair lies, and what is ahead, but inshaAllah I feel that whatever change is coming will be for the best. InshaAllah if we end up in Jeddah my mom said I can apply to UAQ.. chances of getting accepted are slim to non though...
I've come to a realization about some other things that I may or may not post about on this or one of my other like 10 blogs (lol). Alhamdulilah I feel good about things in general. I feel alot more clear on things, and I'm happy. Even the "depressed" moods I've been getting into recently have been diffrent than other times. wa lillahil hamd.
'ala kullin, I probably should get off now before my dad comes home, if he is coming now :S. Allahu 'aalam, but I think he has the next couple days off, so I may not be online much...not that it makes a diffrence to anyone really.. ya'll to busy !! :(.
chotu-meyeh
@ 7/12/2005 06:46:00 PM
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