ok ok that front reallllllly didnt work. I dont think anyone really bought it.. even my mom and sis saw through it.. so I guess I should just drop it. Alhamdulilah I am feeling better today but definatlly not to that degree lol..

Yesterday evening Zaineb made me go out with the girls. She made serious threats to me if I didnt go lol. Said I needed to get out of the house and that I needed to be with people.. right, ofcourse. 'ala kullin we went to Highland which was aight. It was me, tassnym, dina, my sis, and some khalas. We mostly sat and talked.. me and dina raced a couple times which was fun. I kept beating her so the last time she pulls me by my abayah, the whole thing almost came off.. the khalas were like AYB!!! so ya, that was fun I guess.. When we came home my dad was home and I was scared couse we kinda didnt ask him to go, but he didnt give.. I read a little then whent to sleep.

I got up today and came online for a bit.. dad got up at like 9 couse my sis was making to much noise and that annoyed me couse well he had today off and I woulda rather he stayed asleep for awhile more. When he came downstairs I was like aight let me suck up my pride and try to make things better.. so I came down and said salaams.. and go "baba do u want me to make you coffee? breakfast? anything? " and hes like "no, nothing". I seriously dont know whats up with him. Hes been in this type of mood for a few days, no one can really talk to him.. moms like hes up to something again.. ahh khair inshaAllah..

Dad left atl like 11, came back at 2 left five mins later, and hasnt been home since.. I've been going on and offline.. with nothing to do.. talked to hina a little this morning and zaineb, other than that I've been ignoring every message I get.. Someone promised me they would come on today, but they didnt and I'm mad.. but I guess its better couse it gives me more time to think about things before making a decision.

Sakina's brothers wedding is tommorrow, and yasmeena is leaving either tommorrow or after :(. I know it sounds wierd, but even though its not like me and her chilled out every day or something just knowing we lived kind of close was comforting.. I dont want her halfway accross the world :(. I love you yasmeena!!!!!! May Allah swt protect you and keep you safe and happy wherever you may be.. aameen.

This summer is wierd... Its not that it is BAD its just wierd. It seems everything is changing someway or another.. everything I knew and was used to is changing.. some of the changes seem nice, but others hurt... sometimes I wish things can go back to how they were a year or so ago..

'ala kullin, I might be heading out with the girls again in a bit, and I want to write another post so I'll end this one.. if I end up not going I might add more to this blog.. if not then tommorrow inshaAllah..