Yesterday at the masjid somehow the discussion of who is older, me or Dina came up.. I'm older, by a couple months. But I realized I'm closer to 16 than 15 now! anddd I'm 16 in arabi months :P. And yes I'm one of the people that enjoys getting older, althought latly I've been wishing I could be a kid again :P. I remember a few weeks ago at the masjid I was talking to Nada(19) and she was like "When you're 14 you're like mann I cant wait till I'm 15 to get my permit.. then you're like mann I cant wait till I'm 16 to get my liscense.. then you're like mann I cant wait till I'm 18 to do what I want.. once you get to 18 you're like, ok what now? another year and I'm gonna be out of my teen years and I'll be considered grown.. so DONT wish to be older, trust me"  

Yesterday was really nice at the masjid alhamdulilah. As soon as I walked in I went up to khala Dalia and she was like MARYAM!!!! and then hugged me.. I love her alot.. shes awesome mashaAllah. I missed her.. I missed her daroos.. I missed her advice.. She just came back from Egypt and Libya (she from egypt grew up in UAE, husband from libya).. They wouldnt let 'Amu Awad into libya lol.. so the whole time before and after the dars she was talking about back home and how things are and how the trip whent and stuff. It was nice alhamdulilah.

There were alottttt of people at the masjid alhamdulilah, and we all just chilled out.. it was nice. I sat with khala Shayma' for a longish time talking about things.. Hung out with Dina and Tassnym. We kept going down to the cars to get things or give things to someone and got tiold off once couse all the guys were hanging out infront of the masjid.. not our fault!!! we didn't tell them to stand there.. sheesh. But alhamdulilah it was nice.. You should come to the masjid more often (talking to Hina).

When I came back I stayed downstairs with my dad for a bit, then whent upstairs and went to bed. I got 3 more biology exams back :D Alhamdulilah I got good grades on them, including a 100. :D. I only have like 10 more exams to get back before I know my final grade in HS. Alhamdulilah seems like I'm doing ok in them so me is happy.

Dad is at work today, I dont know when he is going to be home.. but I dont think he'll work full day today :(.

I've been thinking alot about this decision lately.. There is a hadith, I dont know the exact wording but the meaning is that a Mu'min doesnt fall into the same hole twice.. and that is what I feel I may be doing, well except this would be the third time :P. I think I had one leg in this whole before and alhamdulilah was able to get out of it.. and then I fell into it totally, and I'm still in... and now if I say yes I might be falling in again.. but is it possible to fall in when I'm not even out if it? Allahu 'aalam.. I'm not sure if this makes sense at all, but ya I'm not sure yet what I want to do...