Today was well intresting to say the least. I didnt get to sleep, since my dad ended up getting up and wanting me to get breakfast ready before he left for work.. and then I had second class so I had to stay up.. My mom needed to go shopping and then drop some things off at Umm AbdulQudoos's but I didnt feel like going so I stayed.. ofcourse she gave me a niceee long list of chores to do..

The time I spent at home alone was good in a way. The first half of the time I was really really hyper and in a sort of crazy mood. I pretty much spent it finishing the chores my mom asked me to do, talking to people, and prank calling others :/. Yes I know that is mean, but hey I was bored. The second half of the time I did something I've been wanting to do for a while but have been trying not to do. I got my Cd's and went through them...

This was bittersweet to be honest. There were alottt of good memories, and it brought alot of smiles to my face.. but at the same time I had tears in my eyes one to many times. I've been wanting to go through them for a while.. but I keep telling myself nah, not now etc.. today I was like whatever Im bored.. UmmQaylah I found the book.. lol... man... alhamdulilah 'ala kulli haal.

One thing I really hate is having doubts about someone. It just ticks me off couse I know its coming from shaytaan to try and cause a furqaa. But sometimes its so hard to not think about them. Everytime you get over the thoughts, something happens or you realize something that brings it back..

I realized I give pretty good advice! Today I was giving someone some, my "daily lecture" to them as they like to call it. After I typed for a while, I just stopped and re read it.. I was like mashaAllah now if only I could comprehend this and follow it.. Alot of times its easy to look at what other people are going through and "help them" with advice or whatever, but its almost impossible to do the same when it comes to your issues. Alot of what I told her today could fit very well to what I've been feeling/going through, but I could have never thought of or realized the things I said were it for myself. If that makes any sense.. in short its easy to advise others, impossible to advise yourself.

'ala kullin, its asir.. I probably should get offline.. get ready for salaah, pray, help mama, change!!! lol this morning I washed my face, brushed my teeth, made wadoo, brushed my hair etc but didnt bother changing, so ya I'm still in pajama's. I guess it has to do with the fact that I've been wanting to go back to bed the whole day but havn't gotten around to it. And its been one of those really slow days as well. So yes, if I dont want to hear a lecture from my baba I besta get my act together before he comes home.. hmm I still have an hour and some left though..