soo hmm, lets see.. I really dont know what to update with.. and I dont really want to update.. I'm pretty much just doing it couse I have nothing better to do.. and I dont know, I just am.

Yesterday was a sorta sucky day.. but wasnt too bad. When my dad came home he told us that he had already made plans with khala Aisha's husband to spend the day with them.. that meant my plans to sleep were gone.. so after praying dhuhr we went blueberry picking lol.. it was aight I guess.. but I would have rather stayed home.. after that we come home to get food ready to have dinner at Avery park.. My sister went over to khala Aishas to help her, and I stayed at home.. my mom didnt need help so I went upstairs and layed down.. About an hour later I hear my parents from downstairs "MARYAM, MARYAM" im like no I'm not getting up.. finally I realize I'll get in trouble so its best if I do..

When I got up my mom was like "make salaad" so I did, and then we left. Ever since I got up then my back has been hurting me whenver I lay down. When I got up I couldnt even turn my head from how bad it was hurting, it got better alhamdulilah.. but now everytime I lay down and get up it hurts... 'ala kullin, it was ok at the park.. didnt do much.. just ate and stuff.. and then came home.. when we got home I took shower and went to sleep again... woke up for maghirb, sat with everyone for a while.. whent back to sleep and then got up at 2am to pray ishaa' and stuff...

I didnt exactly sleep after that, but I layed in bed all drowsy, and tried to think.. After fajr I went back to sleep for an hour and then got up for class.. half payed attention to that, since I was talking to yassssmeeenaaaa.. Alhamdulilah at least that part of my day was enjoyable. Towards the end of class my dad gets up and I have to go get him breakfast before he left to work.. when he left I came back online for a bit and then got off so my sis could use it.. And then we got into a big fight, and my mom got really mad etc.. it wasnt one of our bigger fights but my mom made a huge deal out of it.. anyways, I went to sleep again at like 11 and got up half hour or so ago..

Thats it really.. nothing special.. ZAINEB is back which is nice alhamdulilah.. and I got one of my bio exams back, and it had a 97 on it so that was good alhamdulilah..

Something is up with me these days, and Im not sure what. I dont think its depression, couse I know how that feels.. and alhamdulilah I'm not depressed.. on the contrary I feel pretty good.. But I've been thinking wayy to much, so maybe I'm exhausting myself in thought? lol Allahu 'aalam. InshaAllah khair though.. probably just one of those phases I go through every now and then..

Looks like I have a new stalker LOL.. this one is in Texas.. one of my stalkers disapeared :O.. but the ones in Oman, Tokyo, and New York remain... people are wierd..