.:Monday, August 08, 2005:.
late night AGAIN
maaan I need to stop staying online all night. I end
up either doing something stupid, something crazy, or
just doing something. I cant help it though. I have
good connection at night and I cant sleep.
I started my online session a bit earlier today,
around 9. I had HORRIBLE connection so ofcourse the
conversation I would have wanted good connection for
had to be at this time. The convo was more than an
hour long but I dont think we actually were talking
for more than five minutes. That ticked me off. My
sister kept making fun of me couse I was getting so
mad... and then to bug me more she begs for the
computer, and since I'm trying to be nice to her, I
give in to her request..
When I came back after my sister finished using the
computer I had great connection alhamdulilah. So for
the past four hours or so I've put it to use, by doing
nothing but talking. I dont think there is a subject I
didnt talk about. I just told all.. when I wasnt
practising, suicidal thoughts, current problems, my
feelings on things, my opinions on things, things in
the past, hopes for the futures.. just about anything
you can think of I talked about.. and I talked to just
about anyone that was on.. and when everyone went off
on this account I switched accounts..
I spent fifteen mins or so on my other account. I got
to talk to Muna for the first time since she left.
After we talked for a while and caught up on each
others news I switched back to this acccount.. no one
is on so I thought I'd update and then possibly go to
sleep or something.
I dontk now whats happened ot me but latly I havnt
been able to keep my mouth shut. Usually I dont talk
alot, dont say alot, and when I do say things I'm
selective in who I tell.. but latly I'll talk to just
about anyone and tell all to them as well. Its driving
me crazy couse i know this isnt good and I need to and
want to stop.. I just cant.. maybe I should spend less
time online...
I'm hungry and sleepy. There are some things I could
eat upstairs but I dont want to couse if I do then I
have to go brush my teeth again.. and that means going
out of the room and I'm lazy :D. I dont exactly want
to sleep either, but I'm starting to get really tired
so I think I'll end up going to bed in a little... as
if 4am is early or something :P.
I checked my blog counter a while ago and i noticed
that someone with a Toronto IP has been going through
my archives. I can not figure out who this is and that
bugs me! Usually random people that check the blog
will just read the front page, not go through
archives.. they've gone through, july, august, and
september 2004 so far... I really like blog counter,
it makes my stalking jobs sooo much easier :D.. maybe
I should add blog patrol and the other blog tracker to
mine like UmmQ has on hers.. then you get statistics
from three diffrent sources.. except I really dont
have time to check and compair all those..
Have I mentioned how much I miss yasmeen? I'm going
crazy without that girl! mannn i misssss herrrr :(.
she helped me keep my sanity.. indeed she was the love
of my life :( my love is now gone.. she broke my heart
and left me all alone :(. I miss you yasmeeeenaa..
ufff you havnt been online in more than a week!!
ahh anyways, I better go to bed before they start
getting up for fajr in half hour or so.. anddd I guess
I dont have anything more to do on.. only person
online on this account is Al-Away.. and on my other
account there are a couple more Al-Away'ers.
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@ 8/08/2005 04:04:00 AM
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