.:Friday, August 19, 2005:.
my meena!
I just spent the past two and a half hours talking to
her. Ya Allah I missed that girl so much.. I cant say
I feel that much better after talking to her. I'm more
worried about her than before. If there is one thing I
can not tolerate its seeing someone I love dearly
hurting.. Shes in a simlar state as me.. she has no
idea what she wants in life anymore.. except shes way
more depressed, I think. wallahu 'aalam.. maybe I'm
just fronting better :P.
After the first half hour of catching up on each
others news the conversation turned into a counsling
session. I dont think there is a depressing topic that
we didnt bring up! She signed out without saying
anything a few minutes ago.. probably dc or
something..
I finally figured out how to stay online with this
connection without getting disconnected every ten
seconds. Use yahoo messenger! I saw that yasi had
checked my blog so I asked a friend to add her on
yahoo and see if she was on.. she was so I logged onto
the web yahoo but it sucked so bad I decided to
download and install yahoo.. and alhamdulilah I did
and its working great! One thing that bugged me about
it though is when I closed the laptop I lost
connection and when I reconnected it closed the
screens I was talking in so I couldnt save convo :(. I
wanted to! I have the last half hour or so of the
convo but I wanted the whole thing.. alhamdulilah 'ala
kulli haal..
alhamdulilah I had a good night. I had a chance to
speak to UmmQaylah earlier before 'isha.. we had a
nice hour long talk or so.. first time for us to talk
like that in a while.. and then speaking to yasi was
nice..
Talking to yasii added alot of things for me to think
about.. not exactly added but more like brought to
surface.. we covered so much in the time we talked..
and it just brought back alot of memories.. and alot
of thoughts to the future.. I cant explain it
really... In a way advising her as best as I could was
sort of advice to myself.. things I needed to hear,
but no one was telling me.. so now I'm thinking on it
myself.. and wondering if certain choices I might be
making are the right ones..
anyways I'm extremly tired.. and tommorrow seems like
a long day.. I'll worry about things later.... make
duaa for meena, that she stays strong.. and that
things get better for her..
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chotu-meyeh
@ 8/19/2005 03:20:00 AM
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