SubhanAllah.. I opened this screen to update about an
hour ago.. I have no idea how the time just flew.. I'm
really tired now but I'll try to update anyway.
I dont know what has gotten into me. I was totally not
normal today. I'm known to be the conservative type.
Usually I wont take of my abayah at gatherings, and if
I do I dress simple and fully covered.. except
ofcourse at Dania's engagment, nikaah, and wedding,
but we wont get into that... Today I just went all
out.. Dressed up alot, and it wasnt something I would
normally wear out.. well I would, but it was just
wierd man.. Before we left my sis told me "meyah, I
know you might not believe me but I think you're one
of the most beautiful girls here, if not the most
beautiful". I was like awwwwwwwww. It might not be
true, but it was sweet. I love my sister alhamdulilah.
We were at Maryams house from like 5:30-9ish.. and all
I can say is it was crazzzy. The khalas were all in
the living room and all us girls were down in the
basment. There was a TON of people mashaAllah. From
Portland, Corvallis, and even washington state. There
was a group of like 20-30 girls I think? I just
counted about 20 and I know that it wasnt all of the
girls. Anyways we went crazzy.
We were down ther with no supervision and we just went
wild man. I dont think I have ever danced that much. I
swear I wasnt normal. well in a way we all werent. But
it was more wierd for me couse I'm not like that!!!
I'm the more proper type. Everytime I'd sit down I'd
start spacing out.. Hina, who is the only one of the
girls that knows whats up with me, kept telling me "to
much stress eh?" and I was like please dont remind me.
But it was fun.. had a good time. First time this
summer for all of us to get together like that and
just chill.
We were supposed to be at the masjid at like 7:30 but
we kept telling our moms "please just ten more mins".
I swear we were acting like little kids. finally
around 8:30 my mom was like "NOW?". So we left and
went to Umm AbdulQudoos's house to say goodbye one
final time. :( I'm gonna miss her. After that we went
to the masjid for dars and got home at like clost to
10.
It was nice at the masjid.. not to many people since
most went home from Maryam's instead of coming to
masjid.. but it was nice. At the end it was us, khala
Dalia, and tassnym and her mom. Khala Dalia was like
"Allah yehdee 'amik 'awad, looks like hes going to
have me wait for him till 'isha". I was like "I'll
wait with you!!!!" my mom was like 'and how will you
get home?" :( I couldnt stay. I wish I could have
though.. I wanted so badly to just sit down and talk
with her.. tell her everything that is on my mind..
She is one of the few people that can read me like a
book.. and she did today. I didnt say one word to her
about how I was feeling, or what I was thinking but
she knew..
After I had said salaams and put my shoes on I was
sorta standing to a side away from everyone and she
came up to me and held my hand, looked me in the eye,
and started talking.. she told me not to let anyone
break me down.. to turn to Allah swt for everything
and never want or ask anything from the creation. She
said that inshaAllah I still have a long ways ahead of
me and to not let circumstances slow me down. To
persue my dreams and reach my goals.. she said she
knew these were hard times for me but that inshaAllah
things will get better.. that there is two eases for
every hardship.. and to never ever give up.. if there
is something I want then to go after it, no matter how
impossible it may seem.. Then she gave me a hug and
said "I love you". When she let go of me I had to
turn away so she wouldnt see the tears in my eyes, but
she didnt need to see them, she knew they were there.
She had two of her kids with here, Asmaa' and Fatima..
I stood there looking at asmaa for a minute and I was
like "subhanAllah ya khala I remember when Othman was
her age, now the boy wont even say salaams to me!".
Fatima started laughing so I was like "fatoom, you
remember right? When me and khadija would run you and
Othman around the backyard on our backs?" she was like
"yea, I remember". Then asoomaaa gave me the biggest
hug shes ever given me. it was cute :D. She didnt want
to let go lol..
When we got home I came online for a few minutes and
then just layed down. I couldnt bother staying on, and
plus my sis wanted the computer. After she went to bed
I decided to come online.. I spent the first hour or
so downloading and listening to a
khutbah..BaarakAllahu fil khateeb...and then I guess I
spaced out for the next hour and here I am updating
now. InshaAllah I'll head to bed in a few minutes,
since I want to get some sleep before fajr.
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I'm glad you had fun last night...I have to agree...everyone went pretty wild then! Argh...have to go to work again at 4 pm. *sigh* I'm going to go take a shower then maybe a nap, if I can get to sleep! :-P
Talk to you later insh'Allah. W'salaam.
