.:Sunday, August 14, 2005:.
told you so!
One thing that bothers me alot is when someone tells
me "I told you so!". I know I screwed up. I know I
made a mistake. There is no point in rubbing it in. I
take full responsibilty for my actions, I'm not
denying it or putting the blame on anyone. No, I take
full responsibilty for my actions, so please dont tell
me I told you so. Couse I already know you did. And
no, this isnt directed to anyone, its just in general
something that bothers me. So please dont take it that
way habeebti, couse I think that was an "I told you
so" that I deserved :P.
Another thing that bothers and disgusts me is these
arab "muslim" singers and actresses. If you think the
ones in the west are bad, some of the ones that carry
muslim names are worse... and its just so sad man..
someone once told me "The artists in the west get
their insperation from the arabs". Although it was an
exageration there was a little truth in it. Some of
the music videos and such.. you know, I'll just shut
up on this subject. Alhamdulilah al ladhi 'afana.
I just realised how much I like the view from here.
The desk is right at the window in my room and I have
a pretty nice view man. The imedate view is some
houses and such, but if you look past it there is the
hill and the hospital on it and then past that you can
see the mountains. Its all nice and green.. Evergreen
trees and the such.. its also facing the west so at
night you get to see a pretty nice sunset. The sky is
clear blue today, not a cloud really. Its really nice
and peacfull..quiet.. serane..
My dads downstairs, moms in her room or kitchen, and
my sister is asleep on my bed. I never understood her
logic behind sleeping on my bed when she has her own!
Alhamdulilah though, as long as she is happy. I like
the calmness. Its just me and my thoughts..
I dont see us moving out of the country soon. I really
dont think it will happen. So inshaAllah I'm going to
apply to uni. Khala Dalia is going to flip out at me
for it, but I need something to keep me busy. In a
way I know she is right, especially with all the
alternate ways you can continue your education now
adays.. its just that.. I dont know, I know I'm just
making excuses. I do plan to get into the online
program at OSU inshaAllah, but in order to do that I
have to attend Lbcc for a while and possibly OSU..
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So we'll see. This is one of the reasons I'm taking my
time in making up my mind to go or not. I was talking
to Umm Yusif about it before she moved since she had
wanted to go back to school last term and khala Dalia
talked her out of it.. She told me that even if you go
to class then home, without mixing with anyone, you'll
still end up seeing something impermissible.. No
matter how hard you try, its all around you.. But then
again, living in this society its all aroundt you
anyway. I guess the diffrence comes in having an
alternative to attending school but there really isnt
an alternative to going to the store and so on..
I've noticed that I take way to long in my blog
updates now. I used to type them up really fast.. but
this one has taken me about an hour to type up. I keep
spacing out.. looking out the window.. And I suppose
my crazy conversations with Hina arent helping :P. We
keep on having the wierdest convos.. arguing about cow
towns? or was it ghost towns? actually both. And about
wich auntie moved to calgary, and wich auntie moved to
edmonton.. and if the new family is from Edmonton,
Toronto, or Montreal. And about who is upsetting my
connection :/ and just about every other wierd thing
you can think of.
Last night while in THE craziest conversations I heard
my dad coming upstiars.. it was a little after
midnight. I said "dad cming, salaam" and closed the
laptop. Right at that second he opened the door to our
room to let the cat in. My bed is right by the door
and I know he saw I wasnt in it.. couse he stood there
for a good minute before leaving.. I froze where I was
and just waited for him to go down. I had a feeling
he'd be back so I unpluged the laptop so the light on
it wouldnt show and layed down.. alhamdulilah he didnt
come back and alhamdulilah i fell asleep :D.
all in all the days been pretty well so far.
InshaAllah there is a project I want to start up..
well a few.. but one is personal. I figured if I had
enough determination to finish HS like I did, and in
other things as well I better have enough
determination to do this. InshaAllah it will be a good
way to snap out of this lazyness.
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@ 8/14/2005 01:22:00 PM
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