SubhanAllah.. inna lillahi wa inna 'ilayhi raji'oon.. I dont know what to say really.. subhanAllah..

 

just yesterday I was speaking to yasi for the first time in a long time. We were talking, everything was fine.. she kept saying how she missed me and felt I didnt care anymore.. and was even jelous of others I talked to and stuff.. and like I told her that wasnt so.. and said I almost felt the same.. but alhamdulillah at the end it was nice.. since we hadnt talked like that in forever. and then.. subhanAllah..

 

Today she comes on for a few minutes and tells me her mother passed away last night... subhanAllah man.. there are some things that cant be put into words.. this is one of them.. I didnt know her mother at all..talked to her like once but still.. subhanAllah.. we only spoke for a couple mins today but there was no doubt how she was feeling.. subhanAllah, this girl has been so much.. when I think of her it puts me to shame whenever I complain.. I love her so much but I feel useless sitting here unable to do anything at all for her..

 

im home alone right now. :(.. I dont want to be here by myself.. i had/having another good deep fruitfull conversation with muji.. may Allah swt make it easy for us to do all that we plan.. inshaAllah like this we will be doing our part, as best as we can, for now..