*translated from arabi*

Mom: So what happened with your hajj plans? Why couldnt you go but you're going to egypt end of January?
My Uncle: I really wanted to go this year but inshaAllah next
Mom: InshaAllah
My Uncle: And I dont want to go to egypt now either! I'm really busy as you know but your sisters wont leave me alone.. they're pushing on me to come now and take care of things.
Mom: na'aam. May Allah swt make your affairs easy for you..aameen.
My Uncle: Aameen!
My Uncle: Do you still want to send Maryam with me?
Mom: To be honest I wanted to come as well and take both girls but Maryam is having second thoughts because of school and other things
My Uncle: You want to come? What about you're visa issues
Mom: *tells long story that I dont feel like typing*
My Uncle: Well, I really want to go in the summer that way I can spend more time and I could go for Umraah. If I go now I dont think I'd be able to.
Mom: I think it would work out best for us all if we'd go in the summer
My Uncle: Then talk to your sisters please. I've tried to tell them but they're stuck on me coming now. Maybe if you speak to them and tell them that you would be able to come in the summer they will agree.
Mom: InshaAllah I'll call them as soon as I hang up with you..
*now moms on phone with aunt.. cant be bothered to listen in to the conversation*


So whats the point of me posting this conversation? I'm not totally sure. Its just another example of how plans are always changing in my life, inshaAllah for the better. I don't care too much either way. It would be nice to go.. and I sorta wanted to go before the summer to see Stuckoooo, but if its not meant then Alhamdulillah. What will happen this summer? Will I even live till then? Only Allah knows so I'm not going to worry about it.

A few days ago I was stressing about stuff and a friend of mine told me something that I already KNOW but just maybe needed a reminder of. What she said was something along the lines of "You're only going to be 16 once so enjoy it. You dont want to look back at these years and see a lot of worry and stress. No matter how hard times can be there will always be sweet moments in the midst of them--so enjoy those moments. Learn from the difficulties. You want too much in too little time, you cant do everything! If you keep this up you'll distroy yourself. I think of the things that marks our teen years the most is resilience and you're living proof of that. So stop worrying about whats to come, live for now, couse you're not garunteed another breath. And dude, duaa is the weapon of the believer."  Then she goes "WOW I helped Maryam with something that has to do with computers(couse she helped me out when I was working on Word earlier) and gave her advice on the same day :O :O". Brat.

So ya, I'm coo alhamdulillah. And when I get my voice back I'll be even better! It was actually really funny when I picked up the phone when my uncle called. He couldnt understand a word I said and I had to repeat like 3 times. At the end he was like "whats wrong with you? You're arbi is getting worse by the day!!"(hes a joker) and I was like "laa khalu I'm sick" and hes like "ohh salamaat! laa baa's tahoor inshaAllah".

why do friends do things, sometimes unintentionlly, that just totally break your heart. I know alot of people alhamdulilah, but most are just casual friends. There are a handful of people that I just love more than myself.. and just small things that they might do is just I dunnu..