I'm in one of my bad moods again. I'm not sure why..like really not sure. Maybe it's the fact that break is almost over? maybe it's the feeling of not accomplishing what I wanted. Or, maybe it's just because I've been sick for the past few days and havn't done much, which I hate.

 

Yesterday I decided I had enough of the laying in bed, or sitting around so I got up and cleaned the house, much to my mothers disaproval. My mom has this idea that when you're sick you don't do any unnecissary work and I'm not really good at following that. I can't stand having to sit around for a couple days. She reminds me that there is so much I can do while "sitting around". For me, reading or doing something that takes intillectual energy is harder on me when I am sick than to do moderate physical activity..so ya, this is one thing me and my mom differ in. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli haal.

 

I went to the masjid yesterday. I'm not sure why I keep mentioning this every week since I think by now anyone that reads my blog on a semi-constant basis would have figured out that in general I go to the masjid every Tuesday and Friday. Likewise, they also figured out that when I mention that I went to the masjid on either of those days I usually follow it up with "it was alright alhamdulillah". :P. So ya, it was alright alhamdulillah. One thing that struck me, and in a way frustraited me, was that I realized how many "teen girls" there actually are here! Just yesterday there were 9 of us at the masjid and the ones there weren't even half of the ones in Corvallis. Sad, so sad :(. Allahuma ahdina wa ijm'ana 'ala taa'atuk..aameen.

 

One thing that really stuck with me from the dars yesterday was the way khala Dalia explained and put emphasis on the ayah "wa lakaad yessurna al Qurana lil dhikri fa hal min mudaakir". If you put SINCERE effort into memorizing or understanding or reading the Quran Allah swt will make it easy for you. The key though is sincerity. SubhanAllah, when you think about it you realize that sincerity is the key to so much in this life..and it is the only way we will attain Jannah; by sincerly worshiping and obeying Allah swt alone. It's really sad to see the lack of sincerity in the ummah. It is way way too common to find double standards and people saying with their tounges what they really don't have in their hearts. So what she said really stuck with me. Sincerity and effort in learning and implimenting the Quran in our lives.

 

so ya, I got up at 9 since there is something I really need to do and now its past 10 and I still haven't gotten to it. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli haal. I should work a little harder at putting priorities straight.